i don't know if this is cause i am on the spectrum, or maybe more of my OCD/PTSD side of things but I usually feel like when I go out in public, and I see someone I'll obsess over them and just fantasize about them. Tonight I took it to an extreme by finding a person's Instagram when I went to the place they worked at's profile, it was wrong and i guess stalking. Now I know better, but yeah - I don't know. I think it comes from "being in my own world" and neurotypicals just seeming so fascinating and beautiful to me, just like an idea -a dream. Everything is always so dreamy all the time. I have been sexually abused in the past.