Paranoid about computer

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A few months ago, I started becoming paranoid about my computer. I began encrypting, locking, blocking, password protecting, clearing history, etc. I felt convinced that even if I erased all traces of my online activity, that my mother would somehow contact a cousin who works for the US DoD and have her get a warrant to supoena my search history from the cable company, and would therefore know everything about me, read all my texts, etc.

Now, this has subsided, but I am now becoming paranoid not that my relatives are spying on me but that they will discover something by accident. I fear that my mother or father will stumble into my room absentmindedly and accidentally walk by just as a porn virus is popping up, or just as I am googling my favorite celebrities who nobody else likes, and then I will be embarrassed/humiliated/never live it down, and/or my parents will ban me from the computer for the remainder of my life.

I know it's a bit irrational but I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced this or had something similar happen to them or to someone they know. Also, should I really pursue overcoming this fear even if the said thing that I fear people seeing [my blog] is literally the only secret I have in my life, and I feel that if my family knew about it, there would be no mystery left to my life, as at least one of my parents knows everything else about me?

that's intense...wow

If you want to keep it private from them, that's one thing, but if you are feeling feelings of paranoia that are causing problems in your life, that's something else. I would suggest, just do what you can and then yes, try to let go.

Just use ToR then it will be very hard for anyone to track you.

It seems to me like you are worrying, way, way too much..and even if your mom tried contacting that cousin what grounds would they have to do anything like that? Also while sometimes viruses could come up as porn stuff, its more likely than not you'd have to worry more about your computer being ruined and having to get a new one than your parent walking in your room right as some porn virus comes up, though not sure there is a virus that causes porn to pop up...not very computer virus literate I admit. Also would your parents care what celebrities you like?

I do get very anxious over things and even paranoid, have not really had that with using the internet though....but sometimes after a while when I calm down I can see how ridiculous I am being by worrying about every little thing. Also not sure why it would be hard to keep your blog private from people you don't want to tell about it...has any of your family actually tried invading your privacy or hacking your accounts to see what you are doing?

Actually, I feel that my reasoning is logical, though. When I was a child, my parents used to try to eliminate my special interests. For example, if there was a book or movie I was "Aspie-Obsessed" with, they would take it away from my physical possession and prevent me from continuing it or whatever if it was a a series.

Therefore, I my general reasoning is that I am afraid that my parents will think that these celebrities/books/shows, etc are a "special interest" or an "obsession" as they call it, and that they will somehow try to get it out of my life, or if they can't do that, they will belittle the interest, pinning it down to a "stupid phase" and negate its importance to me.