Is this an aspie thing? any similar experiences?

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When I was fourteen and a half, I got it into my head that being in dangerous situations would cure me of my aspie traits. I didnt know I was an aspie. I thought if I'd be in enough dangerous situations, I'd get used to it and learn not to be afraid, and therefore lose my general anxiety.

I thought all kind of situations with people, meeting strangers, would cure me of my isolation and social phobias.

I waited for those situations to present themselves to me, and when they didn't, around age sixteen, I was depressed and obsessed with this and frustrated extremely. Couldnt think of anything else and develeoped an eating disorder. this feeling lasted for quite a few years. I wanted to change, and I thought life would change me. I thought there was something wrong with me. couldnt accept myself the way I was. I do now.

Is this an aspie thing, when you get some idea of thought stuck in your head, and you just cant let go? Even if it doesnt make sense. any similar experiences?

Yes, I have this problem all the time.

Once in a while, I'll put myself in situations that make me anxious. A good example is the anime convention I go to. It causes me great stress and anxiety every year. I worry about a ton of things, yet I continue to go because I realize that I'll have a lot of fun there. I usually do. My first year was a disaster though, but the years after are great with usually only one meltdown occurring.

I do this a lot with other things, but it depends on what it is.

I remember when I was a teenager, about 13-14, I went through this weird phase of randomly developing a thought in my head what made me believe that I was being stalked by certain kids at school. Deep down I knew they didn't even notice me, but I made myself believe that they were. It didn't make me anxious or creeped out. It made me hopeful. Maybe because I was so lonely during this time, that I wanted some sort of attention. I'm not the sort to associate everything I do with AS, but this is pretty strange what I used to do, so it was probably part of being a teenager living with AS. The bad thing is I kind of drawn attention to myself and looking back I feel so embarrassed about it. But the good thing is it was only a phase, so at least now I know not to make up stuff in my head about people what are far from true.

I think we've all felt weird and been frustrated by it.

I don't recall this being a "one track mind" obsession, though.

I have and do have those, though. I like to utilize this aspie trait for what good it can bring my life. I have some big goals for myself and use the whole one track mind trait thing to focus on them and motivate myself to do what I need to eventually get what I want.

I have no idea how successfully someone else might be able to do this.. but maybe you could try redirecting your one track mind obsession towards something much more positive and constructive? Utilize this trait for all it can bring you vs. let it control your time and energy as you focus on something that isn't exactly bringing you positive results or closer to achieving a goal.

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

The idea you describe is called perseveration, and it's very common among aspies. I will get a thought, worry, or frustration-inducing incident stuck in my head on a repeating loop cycle, and I have to talk about it with everyone around in a desperate attempt to find a solution to the worry, get reassurance that the thought (if negative and/or upsetting) won't occur, or to simply vent over and over again about whatever it was that frustrated me. It drives my family crazy, but I can't help it; keeping it inside feels horrible, like I have an electric current running through me, and the only way to make the feeling dissipate is to talk nonstop about whatever is bothering me.

I don't know if it is an aspie thing but i've done this before too.
Once i've gone to a mall alone to see if i could get used to the sounds and the amount of people there. There are times that, if i am feeling very comfortable, i don't sit on the place that i always sit during the lessons on university and try to do not get anxious and still concentrate. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.