alcohol and the spiritual blessing of autism

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I walk around in a bubble. I can't reach out of the bubble and nobody can reach into it. Unless I drink lots of alcohol, then the bubble disappears to a large extent and I find myself walking around in that cesspool neurotypicals consider home. When I'm there I feel that it is a blessing and not a curse that there is a magnetic repulsion between that sinful world and myself. Does anyone else feel this way too? That coming out of the bubble is a descent to a lower world? The people that consider that place home and are comfortable in it and well-adjusted to it are so only because they themselves are lower creatures, so they naturally resonate with that.

//supreme misanthrope

At this point I feel like I might have to get drunk to resonate with aspies too.

I hate alcohol, it tastes appalling. I can barely get it into my mouth. I'm not sure if it's a sensory thing for me or what. I managed to force myself drunk a couple times in my life, but never enjoyed it. I'd be just fine with never having a drink for the rest of my life.

I personally like alcohol. I like the way it burns at my throat. I don't like anything too strong I've never had my inhibitions destroyed by alcohol. I've never been drunk.

I loathe the stuff. Absolutely loathe it.

I've never understood the point of using it. Any good feelings it might provide are false; they're not real, they're an illusion conjured up by the hideous crap... and when they go away, people often feel much worse. AND they'll often have a bunch of alcohol-caused problems during this time. And the stuff can do bad things to people. It can get you into car accidents, which could be fatal, it could get you arrested for doing amazingly stupid things, it could make you totally embarrass yourself in front of others, it could destroy your liver over time if you keep going with it.... the list goes on, and on, and on.

I've always wondered why the stuff isnt banned... I see it as poison, as one way or another, it DOES wreck lives, and it DOES get people killed. Neither of which are rare things. My only theory has been this: It doesnt get banned, because the people doing the banning would then not be able to have it themselves either.

And of course people always drink it also because society expects it of them. You're not NORMAL if you dont drink yourself into a negative IQ on a regular basis. You're a total weirdo if you dont drink. You're not worth associating with if you dont drink. What set of braindead morons started this?

Doesnt help that it also smells like cat urine to me. Just... ugh. I've never touched a drop of that stupidity potion, and I never will. I also dont tolerate anyone using it around me. Friends dont drink around me, because I'll get "unpleasant" if they do. And if any of them has had so much as a drop of the stuff, I dont allow them into my car. Despite that I'm *always* the one driving (and no exceptions to this, ever). Fortunately, most people I know dont really drink much to begin with.

This post makes me smile. I quite like drinking socially, because I can say things without worrying, and am much more free with flirting and joking. As in, if I say something wrong when I'm sober there is no excuse---when I'm drunk, it seems that I "can't be held accountable" (a stupid logic behind people misbehaving under the ruse of a lack of control while drunk).

I was disappointed when my romantic interest had to cancel our evening with wine and rescheduled for a coffee...I was a different person altogether. Clammed up, no clue what to say whatsoever, mumbling, not flirty at all. I must have been a bore...

Although, I don't see it as an inferiority thing whatsoever. I'm just not as all-consumingly self-conscious.

Alcohol provides extreme relief of my social anxieties so I am able to more easily carry on conversations.