Anyone else relate?

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I came across this poem awhile back. I relate to it so much. It hit me hard when I first read it. I actually keep a copy of it in my wallet. It's how I feel when plans change, and bigger life changes occur. Does anyone else feel the same?


Change by Wendy Lawson

Change, change and more change
Of context, place and time
Why is it that life's transient stage
Plays havoc with my mind?

You said, "We'll go to McDonald's"
But that was just a thought
I was set for hours
But the plan came to naught.

My tears and confused frustration
At plans that did not appear
Are painful beyond recognition
And push me deeper into fear.

How can life be so determined?
How can change be so complete?
With continuity there is no end
Security and trust are sweet.

So, who said that change would not hurt me?
Who said my 'being' could not be safe?
Change said, "You need continuity"
In order to find your place.

For change makes all things different
They no longer are the same
What was it that you really meant?
All I feel is pain.

Absolutely. A great choice of anecdote, too, since it's hard to articulate how little things like that utterly ruin my day and can send my emotions flying. It's actually very comforting that she uses such a "simple" example; I think back to crying when we painted a room in my house, or a loose afternoon plan is cancelled. I've spent so much of my life being told I over react, and ASD (though I have yet to pursue dx for lack of $) might well explain these things that have kept me so far away from everyone else in the world.

I cant understand poetry let alone relate to it.

I relate to that poem very well.

I like this poem - it's nice to know I'm not alone in feeling this way about uncertain events or things that are changed for no good reason.

I can relate to that poem.

Some people just outright suck at following through (my parents especially).

Yup, I relate.

It helps when other people know that changing the plans last minute really "screw with my head", and long-term plans being changed can create havoc in a relationship.

There's been more than a few times when I have broken down crying because I was looking forward to doing something with a friend that didn't come to pass. Even as an adult.