Intellectualizing chemical reactions

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I've caught my anxieties and manias in the act, so to speak, without anything for them to attach themselves to, like mice running around in the walls that for decades had driven me nuts because I could never be sure I wasn't imagining them but suddenly I opened up the bathroom door and they're sitting there nibbling on my bathrobe. There is, literally, nothing for me to be worried about; it's pretty clear to me that I have some intense anxiety issues that are probably organically based. I "knew" this before, but now I feel like I really understand the scope of what this has done to my life. What good does it do knowing this? During depression a person thinks about all of the things in their life that have made them depressed. I'm sure plenty of us have reached a point where we realized that no matter what we think about, the depression doesn't go away. Does it do any good to clear your mind to get through attacks of depression or anxiety? I have almost no threshold between depression/anxiety and euphoria, (something that the doc who DX'd me aspie noted on my psych report). It scares me the way a mood can lead your thoughts, because it means that I have never really been able to look at things the way they are but rather build up my intuitive impression of my environment to the point where it agrees with what I see, then rationalize my exaggerated mental state with that impression (like a rorschach test). It occurs to me that this is maybe what everyone does, but from more stable mental states.

I think I have realised why I am depressed, and it doesn't make me feel any better. If anything, I feel worse that I know. I thought it would be more interesting.

The answer is not to think about it - but that's the opposite of all that I am.

Hu!FF

the really good shoewh(Hand in Jacket Pocket)

The icon that is the Huff logo is

a Crucible the letter U which is the resovoir that is the skull --> in the skull we have the Exclamation mark - but in this case the piont is the brain, the line is the electrical activity (an on off switch -which in this case is on).

You ask what drugs I smoke,, I give you hollywood.

Watch Huff - every character can't control the contents of the resovoir (The chemicals) -> one of them has gone to the extreme of dividing his personality to cope (actually two of them have -actually all of them are dual in some respect, even the dog!)

The lawyer is the sadest one -which would be able to control his crucible, but sadly has whinded himself into a cocain addiction loop.
The 'Other Son' (Schitz) -> in later episodes (and if you watch all episode you will find the cure) is recovering and controllig the loop (opening the Io symbol into a U at will)

Another show to watch to get an even deeper understanding is Bay Watch - which the main character -> David(Olde Testament) Hassel (hasle) Hoff (Huff that is connected) pushes you to learn to switch between your crucible liquid state and your Electrical brain state.

->ther's no emoticon for being stoned.

Yup!

oh I forgot to mention --> The left over letters H_FF actually stand for something -> haven't been able to figure that out yet.

How about... Hungarian Freelance Feudalist?

It's gonna take me a while - but I think I'm going to understand what you type. That scares me --- a lot.

Whoops -> I left out the R ! ( Was it on pupsue)

Yurp!

Sue the Pup and biuld me a bandwagon.... I just had a brainfart....

...Next time you are spreading the word about Baywatch actually being a show about chemicals in the crucible(brain)...

and they guy replies... more like the the chemicals surging in my crotch...

..you could reply - no that's electrical activity.(the erection that is the exclamation piont)