My partner once stated, when we were discussing gender, that probably what he sees himself most as, is a brain in a jar.
I personally do not feel that my physical appearance, including the sound of my own voice, accurately represent who I am to my own self-perception. I used to have some issues with this, seemingly the standard body-image issues that most young women have as they grow up. But now I'm just more upset (when I bother to think about it which isn't often) that it's not really representative of me. I'm beginning to realize that there are steps I can take so that my image and appearance will be more in-line with how I perceive myself, which would be nice to show to the outside world instead of them getting a wrong impression of who I am, but the amount of effort just to spend on physical appearance is not appealing to me at all. Keep in mind I'm not just talking about grooming, but clothing choice and style, things which shouldn't be all that much harder or more effort than just putting on random clothes because I already make sure I buy clothes that fit pretty well and aren't ugly.
But at the same time, even doing all that, that I wouldn't get a self-representation that is me, just closer to me. I feel like I've purposefully ignored that things like my voice and my face don't match my internal image of myself for so long that I could be shoved into any body as long as I moved my brain in with it, and I would hardly be bothered. Of course, other people would see me and treat me differently because of it, and that would take awhile getting used to.
Anyways, seems to me like this might also be something a lot of the people on the spectrum have to a degree.
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Not autistic, I think
Prone to depression
Have celiac disease
Poor motivation
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