Any full blown shut ins here?

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I have literally been shut off from society for over 4 years now.
I developed extreme anxiety and depression in highschool and decided i simply couldnt face reality.
I am at the stage now where its getting absurd and I feel itll be too late for me soon, but I have the new reason of this degenerative chronic pain inducing disease which has left me housebound.
I feel I am going insane.

I'm definitely a shut-in. When I was little, my parents thought I was too different for public school so I've never been to school. I developed extreme social phobia when I was fifteen and have no friends other than online. I go shopping for basic food necessities once a week or every two weeks, and may go to the occasional concert with my family, but I avoid social interactions any chance I get. When my parents have a guest over I more often than not lock myself in my room.

Edit: I do have a job with my family, but we work in construction which means while the customers aren't at home or moved in to the building yet. So nearly no interaction at all.

Have you checked with a doctor for your chronic pain? It might be a good idea in case it's something serious. And, I mean, logically, between going to the doctor and staying housebound I think they both have equal risks of driving one insane...except getting a checkup would be beneficial, maybe

I've pretty much been a shut in for 18 years now. I get out to go grocery shopping once a week and go to appointments but that's just about it. It's been worse now that I live on my own. Before I used to have someone to talk to everyday.

Much the same for me for the last three years. I'm not agoraphobic but I don't have much reason to go anywhere or talk to anyone unless there's an emergency or the like.

If I had a choice, I would probably never go anywhere or do anything social, but I'm married and have two kids and everyone is getting after me about getting out more. I don't have any friends to hang out with anyway, getting out is just for the kids (my mom actually said I needed to socialize the oldest one more and all I could say was that that worked so well on my brother! She had to homeschool us because of his anti-social-ness)

You can't hide your self from the fear of rejection if you are the one who is rejecting your self, and maybe this is part of why you chose to isolate..? Maybe now is the time for some small steps toward re-connection, and your mind is moving in that direction with this question.. I am glad that you are here on WP, I recall how it was the starting point of re-connecting for me after a period spent in isolation that was healing at first though became toxic eventually.

I am not really much involved with the larger society, though I do care about social issues and such as poverty...crap that harms the environment and in turns humans and stuff like that. But yeah I do feel rather separated from 'society' I don't stay home and inside all the time(that would drive me crazy, I need to get out at least). But when I do go out into 'society' I automatically sort of have a wall up and feel much more like an observer than a part of it. I also am not working and am on SSI so that also means less interaction with typical 'society'.

So not exactly a 'shut in' in the physical sense, but in the mental sense perhaps.

I only leave home for appointments and to go shopping. And even shopping I can only handle smaller stores, I can't go to like a supermarket or department store unless I'm with someone I trust (pretty much just my wife).

I meet with my case manager weekly so that I'm forcing myself to go out at least once a week.

dont really understand the first sentence to be honest, but yeah there is a big fear there, and I never really approach others because of it. This is probably partly due to past experiences.
My anxiety became too much to handle in highschool and i stopped talking altogether as a sort of coping mechanism I guess you could say.
I am simply useless around others.. I can't interact with them like they seem to do with ease. So I've hidden away from that social failure by simply avoiding those situations altogether if I can. My social anxiety is so bad I can't even talk to family properly.. I feel it's kind of self perpetuating because I'd probably be better now but I feel like I'm expected to be in my old ways and if I break out of it it could be too overwhelming a change and I'd have to deal with a lot more stress.
This is the one thing that has destroyed my life really.
The immense social phobia.
I feel its too late.. maybe I couldve been saved if I received intervention and treatment early on but I simply never received any help for it at all.
That coupled with a lack of motivation and now this crippling debilitating chronic pain inducing degenerative disease has made me quite worthless.
I've only recently gotten some motivation and interest in the real world but I'm really held back by all these other factors.
I've wasted my life sitting on the computer and hate myself for it. I don't think I could be more pathetic.

Not yet. I was one for about 3 months at some point though. Spent most of my time actually in bed.

Don't say that...please don't say you couldn't be more pathetic. You're not hurting anyone or using anyone. Pathetic, I think, would be living only to please others or only to use others, and you've kept to yourself.
I used to have crippling social phobia but I started accepting my differences and found role models who didn't care whether they offended someone or not, and I finally let go of my fears and stopped caring... Let's face it, people who are easily offended are pathetic. People who can't deal with the fact that someone doesn't conform to the social norm are pathetic.
You are not pathetic. You have been coerced into thinking that way by the majority of this pathetic, unthinking population.
You know what? F*** them, do your own thing, and find a way to alleviate your pain.

Thats pretty much what I do. I go out for appointments and shopping. I tend to like medium size stores, but I can go to any size store, if it's not too crowded.

Thanks for the support, but I don't think its about 'caring' for me.. its something inherent which I cant change with an attitude. I wont suddenly have some sort of revelation and finally begin being socially functional.
Honestly though I am pathetic if were gunna be honest.. trust me on that one.
I appreciate you trying to say otherwise though, you'd be the first I think.

Pretty much. If I do have to go out I'll listen to music with noise cancelling headphones and pretty much zone out the entire world.

Thinking of yourself as pathetic serves no purpose though and that IS changeable, so why not just be pathetic and happy?

It is about not valuing strongly that which you cannot do. It is not about giving up on a value but rather finding one that fist better. And if that sounds like a terrible thing to you, just remember that if you choose to value something else, you -will actually value- it, and it will still be you. It is not a superficial change if it's actually a change.