Yeah, I've been through that as well. I think it might just be a normal part of the journey.
DevilKisses has good advice.
I think after awhile that kind of thinking can get pretty embedded within you. It might help to re-remember what you thought of your "quirks" before you had this particular explanation. With luck, you will push through and this whole experience will have given you more data to add to your previous experience and you will simply have new, more correct explanations.
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So you know who just said that:
I am female, I am married
I have two children (one AS and one NT)
I have been diagnosed with Aspergers and MERLD
I have significant chronic medical conditions as well