Is this some weird overload?

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I'm going to rewrite something that I have written on forms before because nobody understood what I was trying to say. The reason why people misunderstood was because I didn't describe it very well in a clear sentence. And it had just happened that night i don't think I was in the correct mindset to explain anything clearly. So here is the problem:
I am misunderstood and bullied along with sometimes harassed play people online and offline. On the other side of the computer when I'm upset over this harassment. I sometimes close my eyes really tight because I feel like there are people surrounding me watching me with their eyes except nobody is actually surrounding me I'm inside my room completely alone.

It's all a image i have created inside but it makes me so scared, I also believe that I am angry or confused on why people are attacking me no matter what I say or do. I close my eyes really tightly as i see all this inside my mind like a image or a fake movie i created. And then i pretend all them people surrounding me and their eyes just slowly fading away one by one.

Once i clam down i feel okay. I'm unsure if inside my head i'm having a overload or what but it's odd and it's a new thing i have been doing when i'm feeling upset (remember i'm alone and its just inside my mind it's not real and i know that it's not real, but its emotion's, like a image a movie or a story i made to feel like i can control my feelings)

It certainly sounds like you're overloaded, especially if this stresses you out. Whether it's weird or not, well I would find it weirder if you didn't have a response at all to negativity. We all have our own ways of dealing with things, what works for one doesn't really work for another. This just happens to be your way, weird is subjective and just as fluid as normal.

The feeling and images of people surrounding and watching you seems like anxiety response, people with social anxiety may say they feel like people are watching them or paying attention to them and judging them negatively, you seem to have these when you have bad interactions with others. The imagining of the eyes fading away seems like coping mechanism to calm down from the fear and other bad emotions, this part seems positive for you to keep if you can't help having these images pop into your mind.