I never thought too much about what my siblings has thought, but I have an idea.
My sister is conflicted whether to feel sorry or console me. Often times, she's embarrassed by me and avoids me all together because she feels uncomfortable.
My brother is often repulsed by my behavior, but he's content when I interact with him and leave him alone with his friends.
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Shedding your shell can be hard.
Diagnosed Level 1 autism, Tourettes + ADHD + OCD age 9, recovering Borderline personality disorder (age 16)