I have taken in - Internalized , maybe , for a word ? - the concept that I may die while I am homeless .
For my health , well , there's been the congestive heart failure I've been treated for , and the " possible small stroke-heart attack " I've mentioned before .
I have less and less money to draw on , as prices go up , and the agencies out here seem to rather dislike me - Oh , don't read this as " I'm anticipating death " - I'm still a fairly hopeful person deep down , remember , as far as for so-called " nice " things to hope for , " but realistic too " , I was wanting to go to San Francisco and see if i could get into City College of San Francisco (IF , for just one thing , I can get up there somehow with the lack of money I have to " nicely finish up things and get new stuff " and take the ride up there and have something once I'm there) ~ But m, minus either a - seeming less likely now ~ conventional " social services " benefactor or athe level of good for5tune I call " winning a game show " ~ It looks like - I might - die HL .
You (I picture) more young Aspies , with " nice " doctors and psych types around you for much of your life , and with the accepted " Aspie ' niche/title from early on , might have couches to sit7 on while playing the X-Box .
Myself , after the horrible experiences I had with mental hospitals , am all crusty " LEAVE ME ALONE ! " . And left alone , unwanted , by the world .
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