I hate/love my autism

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Hello.
I hate that i have autism because it makes my life harder but i love it because it makes me me. Is this weird?
I think that if i had the opportunity to become NT i would not. Am i the only one that feels like this?

I don't think I would be me if I did not have Asperger's. It is too far ingrained into who I am and all my experiences in life. I don't hate it at all, I am fine that I am different, I just would like to learn more about it so I can learn more about why I am the way I am. This forum definitely helps in that regard.

I don't think I would be me without autism either. I think I've been able to connect with other autistics and as a result have become very close to them, so there's one way where I definitely do not regret it, as well as being a unique person.
I do hate that it's hard for me to communicate with people or understand other people's emotions. With other autistics, these issues seem non-existent.

I concur!

My mother told me "it's what makes you you, and I like who you are" and when I heard that, it clicked. Even though I struggle, I wouldn't take it away, it would make me a completely different person.

I think I had an easier time being different from other people before I was diagnosed. I don't look at it like it's a bad thing, for today at least. Tomorrow I might be depressed about. Probably because I'm still processing the shock of diagnosed.

I think your response to your autism is perfectly "normal" and rational.

It's a love/hate thing for me aswell. I personally though am so tortured by the negative aspects of autism that I would do almost anything to be with out it, even if it means giving up part of my personality. I would do that in a heart beat to be able to function and socialize day to day with out having to put enormous amounts of energy into that kind of thing.

I love people but I can't seem to function and interact with them, so this leaves me feeling so f*g lonely it's unbearable.

I have no idea how to separate the fact that I have Asperger’s with who I am as a individual. Sometimes I dislike who I am. Other times I am quite content with who I am.