the things that come out of my mouth sometimes...

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..I just got back from a very relaxing mini-vacation with my boyfriend...and I went to the thrifty store and found a awesome beautiful very old handmade quilt for 12 bucks...(i collect them and have dozens)..(so i was in a pleasant and relaxed frame of mind)

...THEN I went to the grocery store...and panicked because the parking lot attendant for some reason said something to me and was messing with my bike..(I think he didn't want me to park it where i always did..So I found myself saying "Please leave me alone! Go away! I don't need any help!"...I feel pretty rotten...I wish it hadn't bothered me so much and I wish I could have been more polite...my negative juices are still flowing over the interraction.
Sometimes stuff like this in verying degrees will mess me up for hours or even make me cry.

When confronted with "authority figures"..like elderly parking lot attendants...but it could be anyone... I get very defensive...and most of the time it is a knee jerk reaction...I don't know what I am saying or doing until it's too late..so often I will come off as the "hostile customer/bartender/person" what-have-you..sucks

That's me every day! In my case, it's because I'm usually in sensory overload when out in grocery stores, parking lots, etc. and I'm trying to just get in and out of there! And then when someone confronts me unexpectedly, I tend to get snappy. Very embarrassing, and there's just no way for us to explain ourselves! It happens a lot less now that I'm taking Ritalin, because it stops the urge to open my mouth too soon before I can figure out what's going on. It's definitely helped me, but I still tend to get really irritated if something unexpected happens in public like you described with your bike. Guess the only thing to do is apologize and then put it out of your mind! I think most of us will always tend to do this. My AS mom is 73 and still doing it. Sorry, didn't mean to make you feel worse! Just don't let it get you down and ruin your whole day!!

I think it's okay just to apologize and say, "I'm so sorry. I was thinking about something that really irritated me and you just happened to walk up. You didn't deserve that and I'm sorry I did it." At least he'll know that you understand you hurt him. I mean we get hurt often enough to understand how they feel when we hurt them. It isn't good no matter why it happens, but at this point all you can do is let him know it wasn't him and you feel badly about it.

I do it all the time, and then wonder why I didn't stop myself. I've been doing it all my life. I hate it when I do it to my wife because she is so patient and I know it hurts her feelings.

I've been doing it all my life too. Lately I'm trying to catch it in the moment that it starts as a meltdown, the same way I sometimes can catch a panic attack. If I know what's happening, it'll happen anyway, but not so bad.

Yes, that happens to me a lot and it bugs me when I'm unable to fix the situation. In those cases I just tell myself that that security person won't remember me a week from now and I'll have a clean slate. My karma suffers, but if I'm unable to do anything, it's the best approach I can think of to settle the mind.

I work in a store, and I have to try my hardest to talk to people. It is really, really hard to keep my cool sometimes, and if someone ever said that to me, I'd probably hide in the bathroom and cry. (Confrontations with other people make me have panic attacks, I can't help it.) Sometimes I feel like screaming at rude people, telling them that I am paid to talk to them, otherwise I wouldn't. I'm sure that man was a little more normal and understanding than I am, though.

yeah..still feel like maybe avoiding that grocery store for a while.

I will make a resolved effort to try and let this one roll off my back.

The thing I say sometimes make me so embarresed that I just want to go under the table and hide.

He who controls his own tongue, controls the world!! !
I learned the hard way it is easier to put toothpaste back in the tube
than it is to put words back in my mouth. Oh the pain & shame I could have avoided...