I made a facebook post

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So I made this Facebook post just a few minutes ago:
I don't care what the world says about me. I have SPD (schizoid personality disorder) and my brain doesn't work like other peoples but that doesn't mean you get to tell me that I'm crazy. Maybe I'm the sane one and everyone else are the ones who brains don't work properly? I live in a world where people snub their nose at Christianity and mental disorders and these people have made fun of me or have yelled at me because I don't understand things like they do.
I don't see the world like other people and I will admit displays of affection make me uncomfortable, I don't like it when people flirt with me, and I think that everybody can be saved. I'm not saying that everyone with a mental disorder is like me because nobody is the same but I would prefer if gay people didn't find me appalling by being a christian or other people would think me unapproachable.
I'm a person but I just have a different brain and I feel things differently.
Call me naive but that's what I feel and that's what I believe so I have a mental disorder but I'm still loved by God and by my husband.

I was called crazy by people when I was younger because I did things differently than others and they bullied me very severely because of it. I never got along with anybody and preferred to be by myself and sometimes I felt like a mash up of different emotions. I've also been made fun of by gay people and I was molested by a girl when I was eight as well as abused by my brother for most of my life.

Sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart and I can't keep it together. Does anyone have any methods of calming down that I could try, like breathing or something? I'm in therapy but I have a lot of unresolved tension and issues that make it hard to sleep.

Good for you! I too am tired of a few deciding how everyone should act or think. It's one thing if someone makes a case against cruelty or abuse and another if they think I should have different beliefs or see things differently, such as politics, religion, etc.

I have to say that the one thing that I love is music. I have a couple of CDs that I love and when I am stressed, I literally play them over and over and over all day long...for 8-12 hours a day...not too loud, just enough that I can hear it. Playing music in the background always brings me peace.

Another thing that I have found helpful is that when I feel like I am getting overwhelmed, I find a documentary or movie to watch on Netflix/Amazon to get my mind off whatever it is that is causing me stress. I did that tonight as I felt I just wanted to scream at everyone that they were all a bunch of hipocrites...PS which I do believe they are But I found a cool film to get my mind off of it and it helped me greatly.

I did teach my son to take deep breaths when he got angry and it has worked for him...I haven't had as much luck

PS to sleep I use a Chris Botti Italia CD I have...I play it at night and I fall asleep before the first song is over we have used it for years...

Good luck!