InsomniaGrl wrote:
Do you cry often? I hardly ever cry, though i am upset and sad often. The last time i cried was briefly after someone i liked left where i work. That was not in work but at home afterwords. Rarely i shed a tear at some almost random not even necessarily sad thing in a film or something, but other than that nothing.
When i was about 15 i cried myself to sleep almost every night. Maybe having wet pillows and nothing changing made me stop bothering with crying.
What kinds of things do you cry at?
I have like a sadness reservoir or something and when it tips over I cry.
I just bury everything and seem stoic as f**k on the outside. Everyone tells me they have a hard time reading me haha I can't read them so I suppose it is equal. I do have a hard time with emotions I've had the hardest time labeling how I feel lately.
I will cry from happiness at the stupidest things.
For example, my friend who I am very fond of but don't get to see because they live like 16hrs away by plan sent me a txt message asking about work and said they would be coming over for holiday and I got so happy that I just started crying in the middle of the street. I curled up into a ball and just cried and rocked back and forth so I removed myself from public view at that point LOL!
But I was just so overcome!
All emotions like that kind of just push me over.
As a kid I was picked on ALOT for being overly emotional and reacting to my surroundings too much so I learned to lock it all away.
So I never really cry especially not at sad s**t. It's a weakness lol (don't believe that but that's the prevailing cultural image) or if I cry people think I am PMSing (you know because a female can't actually show emotions because then they are just "crazy" or whatever and nothing they say gets taken seriously)even though I'm not.
But I tend to have super delayed crying or like some emotional latency or deadness or something.
Like I broke up with someone and I was just like okay whatever for literally months and then like 4 months later I just started crying and got very sad- like a damn broke or something and now I'm still kind of feeling the after effects of that- emotional landscape = screwed up!!