Help me reevaluate my symptoms, and some questions

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I have found myself at this forum again....

Basically, I still want closure and stuff as to where my struggles come from. I do have bipolar disorder, but my doctors seem to blame everything on that. I can't figure myself out, I can be so Aspie and so NT at the same time I feel, I don't know if that makes sense. I want to know if I should get testing, I will spell out everything the best I can.

People that thought I have AS:
I had two previous therapists think I have AS. One of them I talked to over a span of three years. He didn't think I had it at first but changed his mind. Another therapist thought I had it from the first session. Also, there was a lady that once interrupted me during a support group that said I had it and she can spot it easily, because she works with adults with autism.

People that think I don't have AS:
One of my previous doctors said no, my personality was too "warm". A friend of mine that works with AS kids doesn't think I have it either.

Symptoms:

Special Interests:
I have this strongly. When I get obsessed, it's like I can't think about anything else. For example, when I fell in love with Sonic, not only did I play the games, but I wrote guides for then, I wrote stories, made art, etc... My current mental health caseworker thinks this is just a personality quirk.

Meltdowns:
I had severe meltdowns as a child, to the point I was in special ed. I took things literally, like a kid saying I was smelly made me think they really felt that way about me. Then I would scream and cry.

Social Skills:
This is a bit controversial.... as a kid, my records have "no social skills" all over them. But if I'm handicapped as an adult is debatable. I can have a nice conversation with someone, but as late as college I had someone help me work on conversation skills. I have a hard time with please and thank you.

Reading emotions:
I don't think I have a problem with facial expressions or body language.

Eye contact:
I do look at eyes, but I got a comment from one therapist that I had poor eye contact at first but later it got better.

So basically, I have some things strongly and other things not as strong. I don't know what to do still.

It's possible you are on the Autism/Asperger's spectrum. Go into the General Autism forum here. There is at least one post with links to online tests you can take. Save the results in a file, and print out a couple of copies, one for your records, and one for the psych doc. Also, are you seeing a psych doc with experience with adults on the Autism spectrum? You should if you want an official evaluation.

Hope that helps.

You should go to an autism specialist.

If you asked me I would most likely say yes you have it but I dont know for sure. Go get tested.