I am now in state of panic 'cus I had a scary realisation

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I have always been scared of the world... And I have always been adamant that I would not associate with abusive people (I am not talking about the odd outburst or a falling out.. But individuals who perpetually abuse people on purpose) - like child molesters, rapists and people who abuse their partners or children.. quite frankly I think they are undeserving of life, if such individuals were to collectively drop dead suddenly, the world would simultaneously become a better place.

Anyways it dawned on me that we are acquainted with these people, we are friends with them, we might even LIVE with them anf we might be related to them and not even know what kind of monstrous, demonic entity they are.. HELL you could even give birth to one of these demons and not know!! !

The worst abuse occurs when there is no one to witness it, and it is more common than I initially thought. It scares me to think I am amongst such people.. I am already anxious as it is and struggle to trust people, but I am now panicking at the thought that I surrounded by these people. For a brief moment I contemplated never leaving the house ever again just to feel safe. This world isn't safe. It never has been to begin with, but it certainly feels scarier now. :'(

I think you can leave the house.

People have other things on their minds other than abusing one person out in the street. They have kids to take of. They have mortgages to pay. If they see you, they might see you as someone with whom they could commiserate with--because you have things on your mind, too.

People abuse each other, people are nice to each other. You have to react appropriately to the abuse, and to the niceness. Don't let yourself be a doormat.

Obviously, I can't prove my thesis to you via the Internet--but, hopefully, someone close to you can help you realize that it's not all cut and dry, black and white.

Have you ever mouthed off at someone because they got on your nerves? Raised your voice or said something angry?

If so, you are an abuser - according to some definitions.

Now don't go kill yourself and don't condemn all the other "abusers" to death. There are frictions between people. It happens. You definitely live among abusers because by the (ridiculous) definition I just demonstrated, we ALL are abusers.

But there are also nice things between people. So sample from the different relationships available to you and frequent the people who feel best to you, and avoid the ones who feel worst. If you later find out you associated with an abuser, a real one, you can avoid them at that point.

Aspies often see the world in black-and-white terms and that just doesn't fit reality. It's a thinking style you would do well to harness.