People think I'm happy, but I'm not?

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I am actually often miserable, but when I walk down the halls, I smile at funny things in my head. However, the external world makes me sad and I usually stop smiling at intervals.

I have been told by people that I am "always smiling, always happy." This is simply not true. I am usually unhappy, but I think the expression people use for unhappy is the same as a neutral expression, so they couldn't tell if I was unhappy. I am unhappy 65% of the time, the other 35% I smile.

I am confused. Don't other people think funny things? Do they not smile when they do so? Am I being too literal about the "always happy" thing? I feel that I am projecting an image which does not suit me.

When I was in high school, I was happy maybe 10% of the time. Nobody knew how sad I was. I seemed to take everything casually. I used to sing opera in the subways. People thought I was "happy-weird."

The last 5 yrs I would say I'm probably unhappy about 85% of the time. Most of the time I'm anxious about something. A lot of bad things have happened the last 5 yrs. If anything makes me truly happy, its short lived.

Smiling 35% of the time puts you smiling far more often than most people do it seems. I think most people smile about 5% of the time.