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I recently started getting flash backs of things in my childhood, some which range from disturbing to aspie like traits which have helped me to come to my self diagnosis. I discovered about year ago that i had a "tic" as a child which would cause me to mummer three words of profanity and make a low pitched hummm for about a second. The next was of a picture my family took from which i was the only one looking away from the camera.

A few weeks ago i remembered back to a time in which a supposed friend tried to make sexual advances towards me in my house and then moments after would talk to my father as if nothing had happened. I dont understand how or why i couldnt remember this which happened on seperate occasions midway in adolesence, 15-16 i think. I can also remember a time this kid kept punching me to try and get me to hit him back on the bus home from school, and i just couldnt force myself to fight back. Even though i was much larger in both instances i felt like in some way they were so frail in comparsion and i had deserved what was happening for being who i was. i couldnt find logic in hurting someone whom i consider a friend no matter how much they hurt me......i guess that is why ive come to this passive aggressive state that i am currently in at the moment. wanting to forgive but remembering these events accompined with the child abuse i recieved at home made me question my loyality and my eagerness to give my friendship to just anyone. i guess thats life though and i just have to deal with it...

does anyone feel like this as well....

uh that sounds like tourettes,

as i thought as well....but a tic is quite similar and has been linked with AS...

The passivity, reasoning, and memories are something I have had. I agree though, that the tic with profanity is tourettes. That doesn't exclude AS, but it also doesn't support it.

Steve

Was that your only tic? If so, I don't think it can be Tourette's. Tourette's requires you to have multiple motor tics and one or more vocal tics that occur many times a day for over a year for diagnosis.
Feeling compelled to blurt out obscenities is officially called "coprolalia" by the way, in case you were curious. It's actually pretty uncommon, even in Tourette's. You're lucky you don't still have it though, in any case.

whats "passive aggressive" i heard this used to describe ppl, and it seems like an oxymoron to me.

Passive Aggressive usually refers to a type of behavioral pattern in which you resist something through means which avoid direct confrontation.

Things such as not wanting to go to a party so you take a long time to get ready so you miss your ride and dont have to go or you make your girlfriend/boyfriend angry at you so they will break up with you on purpose because you dont want to have to confront them and tell them you dont want to go out with them anymore would be considered passive aggressive behavior.

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