Meltdowns are nasty. I am sorry that happened to you too.
Ultimately it is a good thing to learn what causes you to melt - so you can avoid some of them and what you feel like just before a melt so that you can bail out and get some quiet before it happens.
Usually once it is happening, it is too late.
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Who is John Galt?
Still Moofy after all these years
It is by will alone that I set my mind in motion
cynicism occurs immediately upon pressing your brain's start button