Weird Crying Outburst

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So I had the strangest thing happen to me last night. I was texting my friend while I was in bed who told me this really sad story. She said that just a few months ago her mom told her that she had an older brother but he died of a miscarriage. Yesterday was his birthday. Both my friend and her mom were really sad. She went through all of the details and then at the end, I asked her "so what was his name?" She immediately told me his name and it's the same name as my mentee. The story was already sad but I was fine listening to it until I read his name and then all of a sudden without any hesitation I burst out in tears and continued sobbing uncontrollably on and off for about 1/2 hour until I was calm enough to try and fall asleep. I'm not sure why this happened. It may have been because I saw the name and pictured my mentee dying or perhaps I just miss my mentee a lot and it's just depression. I honestly don't know but it was strange and sad. I even asked her if she was sure that was his name and she said "yes would I lie about that?" and then I felt bad for asking but I just had to because I was shocked and distraught. I just wanted to share this with the community to get some thoughts. Thank you for reading.

I'm very sensitive to caffeine.
It amplified the entire emotional spectrum in me.
Do you drink a lot of coffee?

In the Holocaust movie Shoa a man is interviewed who was a barber at one of the death camps. He describes his work there as maintaining a pretense that this was a normal village. New arrivals would be placed into thinking they were just being process before moving on. He seemed pretty stable in telling about his experiences until the recollected working on the hair of someone he had known from his own village. Then he broke down.

It seemed as if he was insulated up until he had a memory with a personal connection. That seemed to open the flood gate of emotion. This might have been the trigger for you (the connection with the name).

Empathy overload.

Actually, it's weird. I never drink coffee. I also have some natural energy drinks with energy from tea but no heavily caffeinated beverages other than that. Even those I typically only have 1 or less per day. You guys might be right. It might be empathy overload. I'm not sure. I just know that I might be seeing my mentee on Monday for the first time in almost 4 months. I really miss him and I'm not sure how the first session is going to go, but I think I'll be a little sad when it's over because then I can't see him until another week passes. I really want to be there for him and support him through his issues.

Chocolate also has caffeine.