My younger brother , whom I will call " Gordon " , is ret*d ~ Or (at least one fficial diiagnosis was) mildly ret*d and mildly autistic .
Basically , he is " for real " austistic , not like me , you can instantly see what he is (I'll not get too caught up in the " You don't say ' ret*d ' anymore " thing now .)
My parents set up a good group home for him , he's well-taken care off and , in fact , is I'm sure in better health than I...But I haven't physically seen him for 18&1/2 years or so !
I'd make pay phone calls to him , putpay phones essentially don't exist anymore...With me health as it is now , might I even have to , when I've maybe improved slightly and the NYC area's weather is better , have to go ~ homeless ~ to the NYC-plex to , somehow , set up a situation where I can visit there ~ and maybe end up dying there ?
There , I put some melodrammy at the end . It's true , however .
I always thought of myself as " normal " in comparison then I found out I wasn't , being AS (though I always had a " not normal " tag also) ~ With my rather bookish English major/journalist parents I didn't seem that odd to them by contrast , perhaps .
I've meant to write this for a long time , now I am , finally , sort of squeezing/rushing it out .
Do any of you have a similar " more strongly AS sib " situation ?
What my life might've been if I'd been treated as " special " early on , well , to pity myself ...I wouldn't be homeless ? With no posessions ? With possible death at 56 invoked ?