I got fixated on my diagnosis. How can I unfixate?

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Hi!

I was diagnosed with Asperger's around 2007 (in Poland we use ICD-10 rather than DSM, so it's still a diagnosis here). However, when my psychiatrist told me about that diagnosis, I became fixated on it.

Even though I also have OCD tendencies and sometimes develop psychosis, I don't feel that fixated on them. Also, my psychiatrist somewhat insists that I'm talented due to my Asperger's. When I was a school student, most things I had to learn were a piece of cake, but now that I'm in the "real" world and having to work to support myself, I don't find that so easy and I'm having issues with everyday functioning.

I'd like to develop passions again and be in a relationship, but I somehow feel the diagnosis is holding me back. Does anyone have an idea why that is so? Is it because "Asperger's" is an abstract term and I have problems with understanding the concept? I feel like I'm mimicking the symptoms and I'd like not to do that anymore. One therapist hinted I feel this diagnosis seems attractive to me.

Another thing is that I have quite low self-esteem (like many of us, I know) and telling me compliments such as "you're talented" or "you're talented because you have autism" seem to offend me. Also, since I tend to think in black-and-white terms, when somebody tells me I'm talented, I imagine, like, someone who is perfect.

26 days 10 hours and 21 minutes since my diagnosis.

My obsessions can hang on

A friend or is it acquaintance quoted someone saying , if it's worth doing it's worth doing to excess.

Now 22 minutes 23 second.

Humor helps. Also sign. TIME TO MOVE ON.

49 second ...

I've found the best way to deal with a fixation is to go with it until it passes.

Jacub, your dx might seem "attractive" to you, because it explains so many things, like why you´re struggling at work and more. Nothing strange about that - and a psych should certainly not "neuroticize" it.
Aspergers IS abstract - mainly because you´re "houseblind" - meaning, this is what you know.
You do have functional problems IN THE SURROUNDING CULTURE.
Like Tony Attwood says about Aspergers: When the aspie-kid enters his own room - the difficulties disappear!

It may sound ordinary - but look at your old strengths and count in aspergers - and you might find, that your level of passion has something to do with it: The autistic "singelemindedness" and drive, that you share with many artists and scientists, be they autistic or belonging to the broad phenotype. That is the way to perfect ones talents!
Plunge into it. Start "doing the movements". You will find your passions again.

Einstein wasn´t perfect. Leonardo wasn´t perfect. Forget it. Forgive yourself - you are only human.

Mimicking symptoms? No, you just became aware, but there´s a whole "normal" society deeming them "sickly".
They are not, you know. They just express a different neurology - normal in your case.
It´s no "excuse". It´s a fact. Take that to heart.

Listen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrQOi_wASnQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=inxIM1a ... 2enBo1j3rg

Being different isn´t easy and sometimes, one could wish to be like anybody else - but then you might not sense as much!

Wow, guys, thanks a lot for the replies, they made me feel a lot better!

Yes, I believe it's society that deems our neurology "sickly". Whenever people were telling me that Asperger's or Autism are "disorders", I felt judged. :/ And as a result, I tried to do exactly the opposite of what's natural to me in order to feel accepted.

Btw, can you tell me why there are so many NTs pressuring us to "use our talents and have achievements (especially in the workplace)"? What do achievements help with and why, as a culture, are we so obsessed with them? I currently see working as a routine.

I try to remember (that time in September) no that's not it

I try to remember I'm a human being Not a Human Doer.

Trying real hard not to do that line from a Elephant Man.