Since my "pre-assessment", I still don't see myself as Aspergers. Why did they say I was? When I speak to people, they turn around and say "we suspected but didn't want to say anything" or "makes sense". How can I have it? Am I a good actor?
My current doubts, I read about not being able to read people - but I think I can read people mostly. I think I have a good grasp on figuring out peoples emotions. My problem, is what to do with it. What do I say? What do I do? My social interaction is severely limited, and it's not because I don't want to, I just don't know how. I do however over think. I was reading another post on the forum about not knowing if someone is giving you hints to leave them alone. But me, Im always looking for the cloud in the silver lining. With no information to go on, I read too much into what people are doing. Even when someone is not upset with me, I think that they are. It's not so much the wrong feedback, but a lack of feedback. I get confused when someone gives me mixed messages of friendship then extreme disinterest. I'll focus on the negative rather than take what people are saying at Face Value, but Im aware, actions speak louder than words. But this seems to be a relatively normal behaviour pattern. Isn't it?
Then of course the discussion on cooking. The consensus seems to be that Autistic folk might get side tracked in their special interests, or have problems even getting out of the house to buy food. They have trouble following recipes. There's an overload secnario.
That's not my case. My case is a lack of motivation and not knowing how to get started. Once Im started, Im fine. But I need someone to give me that initial push. I need someone to give me a couple of ideas. So with cooking, I need a good recipe, I need a recommended recipe for something I can freeze, batch cook, something tasty. Sure, I might think of someone I once liked, but Im forever just going through sites wondering what will work. I can follow a recipe and cook it, but what do I do with it then? Tell me how to store it!
That's how I am in much of life. Im fine once I get going, but I need to get someone to give me a push.
What do you make of this?
Does this tie into Aspergers or something else?
