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maldoror
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30 Apr 2007, 9:31 pm

Does anyone else feel the urge sometimes to put themselves in intense environments? Maybe to break up the monotony of feeling like crap in a familiar environment, or maybe because it's the only way to move forward with life. Sometimes I want to completely ditch everything I have and hitchhike across the country or something.



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30 Apr 2007, 9:35 pm

I hitchhiked around California for four full months last year. I really, really needed to get it out of my system. Also, now I have a couple dozen different stories to tell, although I'm not sure any of them are appropriate for a family site.



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30 Apr 2007, 10:35 pm

I think about quitting school and enlisting all the time if that's what you mean, although I'm not sure what's more intense...the environment I'm in now or a steady military job.



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30 Apr 2007, 10:49 pm

maldoror wrote:
Does anyone else feel the urge sometimes to put themselves in the most intense environments they can think of? Maybe to break up the monotony of feeling like crap in a familiar environment, or maybe because it's the only way to move forward with life. Sometimes I want to completely ditch everything I have and hitchhike across the country or something.


I did this a lot during my 20's and saw a lot of countries. It's definitely a good thing to do. Always pick some destination though, no matter how vague. Like "North", "New England", "Tonga", "Timbuktu", anything that has your fancy.


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30 Apr 2007, 11:51 pm

i always get the urge to go someplace new...

other than that... prolly nothin drastic


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01 May 2007, 12:46 am

Seeking hectic worlds…nope, my mad mind contains multitudes of madness that’s enough for this man.

I realised that wherever I go I’ll end up exactly where I began.



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01 May 2007, 1:07 am

Nope...no desire to do this but poor choices and alcoholism has helped put me in those situations.I was actually looking for a relationship(love)or friendship,but seemed to end up in "traumatic experiences",mostly in my early twenties as well....when I got sober at 26,all I craved was.....calm.I had enough chaos for a lifetime living amongst the punks and deathrockers.


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01 May 2007, 3:00 am

I know that I don't have the guts.
But something in me is always sabotaging
whatever I'm up to.



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01 May 2007, 3:11 am

I can relate more to the title of this thread: addicted to trauma.

I am not sure if this is part of what you mean, but I'll go ahead and write about it anyway.

I love true emergencies. Life-threatening situations, or situations where normal life stops, extreme weather situations, being in labor, riding in the back of an ambulance, watching a medivac helicopter land... These are times when the normal rules of life and the tedium of having to figure everything out stops, and you must focus completely or else deal with life in a completely different way. I find my senses come alive, and I feel more alive than any other time. I crave these experiences.



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01 May 2007, 3:30 am

I would really like to travel - it's as though I want to 'break free' - I've had that 'urge' since I was a child, like I'm waiting until the day I can escape - although I don't know exactly what I'm escaping from....monotony, I suppose.

I would actually like to start travelling very soon, but I am scared because I would probably have to travel alone and I don't know how I would be able to get the support I need because of my disability.

And I would need quite a bit of support - but I don't have anyone who can come with me as a 'carer' or anything.

Does anyone have any advice about travelling and managing disability? Which countries are better for making appropriate provisions to help those with ASDs? (I'm in the UK, so am looking to travel anywhere other than that, really!!)

If you respond to my post, please be nice because I get upset when people are mean and it is not my fault that I have disabilities that would mean my travelling options need careful planning.



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01 May 2007, 5:42 am

I'm the opposite of that, completely... With a few *very* rare exceptions.



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01 May 2007, 6:00 am

Yes yes yes Maldoror I often feel I need intense drama or a trauma to make me feel alive even normal. I want to work in a war zone or something. In reality after a few weeks I think my nerves would be fried but I always seem to excel in harsh, dangerous situations.



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01 May 2007, 6:00 am

I joined the army at 18 to see the world, then joined the Marines at 20 to destroy it... Guess I had a lot of anger at everything including my family and friends for seemingly not providing the kind of support i needed to not feel like crap. To answer your question there was definitely a bit of self destruct in my decisions of my late teens and early twenties....I am very lucky to not have had to go to combat and take the life of another person although i have plenty of friends and relatives who have done so and have not been themselves since. Although I am glad for the experience and mental toughness the military taught me I can proudly say that I would not re enlist ever again. Now I find comfort in knowing that I have seen a lot for a 26 year old as well the fact that simple things seem more pleasant when they are taken from you or restricted. I am now in school, engaged, and hoping to someday become a psychologist in the next 100 years or so.... These events have definitely been shaped by my wreckless abanden over the years and have come full circle to mold me into the somewhat stable aspie i am today....

So with that being said I think a little recklessness helps to build character and develop the courage needed to face NT's on a regular basis on any plain of life....


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01 May 2007, 6:03 am

Aylissa you hit the nail on the head, thats me all over, when theres an emergency my problems melt away, I always say if there was an apocalpyse tomorrow I would be fine, get me on a bus with a man grinding his jaw and I go nuts and can't cope!!