who here is lousy at dealing with anger?

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all my life my anger was impotent and self-destructive, a mere sputtering hissy rage that goes nowhere except to bore a jagged acid-drenched hole in my guts. I hope i'm not the only one. anybody else here who struggles to be effectively angry?

I picked the sherbert, of course!

How can a person be angry if be can create such a nice, sweet dish?

As for how I deal with anger: sometimes, not so good.

I might punch a wall or something, and incur an injured knuckle.

Or I might say the wrong thing to my wife, and suffer for a day.

Or I might not be able to complete an assignment given to me in the best way I know how.

Anger sucks, really.

Well...
Internally I can get angry very easily.
Some days, when I'm especially irritable, I feel like smashing everyone's faces just for making breathing sounds.
But I wouldn't say that it's a problem, because it's not every day, and when it happens, I can prevent it from bursting out.

You could say that it usually turns into a meltdown!

I have voted "MEE!! ! " because instead of just expressing and venting my anger like any "normal" person would do, I simply suck it up like a sponge until it feels like there is a chaotic tornado deep inside of me. I seemed to have learned to do that at some point in my life, could be that getting bullied had a significant impact on this "anger management" of mine.
It's not a nice feeling to have it all bottled up inside and I sometimes get the feeling I'm gradually worse at expressing emotions too (not just anger), whether negative or positive, and that it's all happening on the inside, but not as a direct part of me. Rather somewhat detached. I suspect this might play a major part of some other of my issues as well.
At some point some part of it will just leave me when it gets too much because the bottle is full, but I still seem to control it (maybe too much?) then and I tend to control it more and more the older I get too.
I think, auntblabby's "self destructive" description might be a perfect fit for me as well.
One of my goals for this year: Fix it.

Well, it's hard to explain, but to make it short:
Yes, I'm not exactly great at managing anger and don't let it out, but bottle it up. At some point it explodes but in a controlled manner.

my scorpio rising sign means I usually bottle up my emotions, might not even be aware of them until they burst forth from an overflowing bursting vessel.

<--- When people make him angry the first thing he does is look for a window to throw them out of. And if the window's locked, even better.

<--- Yes, has anger management issues. (You think?!)

^^^have often darkly fantasized about saying to some ahole, "you're goin' out that window, EXPRESS!" then giving him the shove.

No doubt, I have had similar fantasies like that throughout a lot of my life whenever I was upset. Ironically it just helps bottling up my anger/emotions even more.

Obviously, it would be a bad idea to throw someone through a window though.
But sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on a nice anger outburst, I just can't help it.

I think a good business opportunity would be to hire a stuntman and make a fake building with a series of candyglass windows in which angry patrons [paying for the privilege], after getting insulted by the stuntman, could shove him through the window, perhaps with piped-in sound fx to strengthen the illusion of violence.

Hmm... I would be interested.

I know of a car-wrecking-activity somewhere "nearby" (it's a one hour something drive, but still). You get a hammer, protection wear and a car to wreck.
Unfortunately, I feel way too sorry for the car to do that (yes... I know, it's just a car) and let my anger out that way. In the majority of cases, the car doesn't look too run down for me and it just feels like a waste, so I never did it. I always think "All these parts, they could be spare parts for recycling and use in other models of that kind!".

I was taught that expressing your anger is bad, so I don't. I always find it strange when I see other people let their emotions get control over their behaviour. I think that's a very dangerous and bad thing. Maybe NT people just experience emotions differently. Or they don't put in any effort whatsoever to control them because they were never taught that that's what you should do. Hard to say as I'm not NT myself.

bottling your anger corrodes one's insides, and is generally a bad idea to do it for long periods.

Yes. I can confirm that - and it's not pleasant, neither emotionally nor physically.
It might be better to be rational, but it should end at the point where it does harm to someone - including yourself and bottling up might be one of those cases that will lead to harm in the long term.

And I inanimate objects too!

^^^ us aspies oughta stick together