weakbody wrote:
I can't stand the mean, vicious everyday people anymore. I don't know if they really are that stupid and blind to not see the consequences of their actions. I saw a reaction of a woman to picture, saying that weekend gets ruined when she gets period. But then this other woman started attacking her, saying that nobody gives a f**k about her period and that her (own) weekend doesn't get ruined because of period, that it's natural blah blah blah... Except she used a lot more insults. And I don't want to live with people like this.
I used to be a nice, good child, until I got into school and the people there ruined me. They were bastards. Sometimes I still feel like taking revenge on them. Because they /do/ deserve it. I sometimes get the urge to kill them. Everyone that's ever raised their voice on me. I know it's not morally right. But they aren't morally right either. And now I am sometimes just as much of a bastard as they are and I am disappointed in myself.
And I can't be a bastard when I really should be. I can't stand up for myself. I can't insult someone back. Because I was taught to "ignore" that "it's the best weapon" and that I should suppress my anger and live in injustice.
I wish I didn't have to live in a world where I need to fight for things. I don't want to fight. Fighting is for idiots. I am so tired of dealing with idiots.
If her petty nastiness is really common among the people you hang with, I wouldn't want to be with them either. You want to be the better person, but the everyday insensitivities make it hard. I mean really, is she in junior high? Even in junior high, at least a few kids are nicer than that!