A Frustration About Intelligence

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I'm trying to win an argument with SSI, that's not really going to work for me. I'm kind of tired people thinking because I am intelligent and bright. That I am not disabled. I'm considered highly intelligent, but my adaptive behavior test say in my daily task, the adulting stuff, I'm considered low functioning.

SSI is trying to strong man me and string me along. Tuesday I had an examination by one of their psychologist, because apparently all my therapy with my regular therapist wasn't enough.

Either way this psychologist told me, "Have you tried Vocational Rehabilitation, I think that will work for you". Which to me is coded language to say I am not going to win this argument. I don't know what this guy thinks 9 different jobs in the last 3 years, none of them I ever held down, is consideration for me to work.

Beyond that, I tried Vocational Rehabilitation before and they put me in menial work usually. Okay because you're Autistic you like repetitive task. Let's make you sort recycled material. Let's make you a dishwasher. You're right I don't like a super changing work environment and I like structure. But what I don't like, is boring, repetitive task with no challenge.

Just because I am bright doesn't mean shite about how I function in the day to day world. Working also doesn't quite work when I don't have reliable transportation because I cannot drive. Because of my sensory processing issues I have a hard time driving. I cannot keep up with all the simulation, I cannot really tell the speed of other cars very well. It's nearly as exhausting to drive as it is to both work and socialize.

Consider if you will:

-Sleep deprived because most work requires you get up at ass crack early in the morning
-Driving deprived of sleep, while becoming exhausted with how much more focus it takes to drive
-Go to work to be more exhausted socializing and trying to work at 100%
-To drive home exhausted from no sleep, an exhausting work day, to come home and not even have enough time to recharge

I describe myself as having a Mental and Emotional Bank Account. And work and other daily task has an allotment of how much they can take out. But if my work, is constantly over drafting and putting their account of my Mental and Emotional back in the red. In the negative. Than I am going to have a meltdown and not be able to work at the fullest.

The only way I will be able to work in regular. Normal everyday work. Is if the attitude of the working environment changes and we have more awareness with how it affects people with disabilities of any sort, I cannot work.

I don't understand how many times I have to repeat to SSI, and I don't have know how many times I have to say this to them. But they just think, oh he's intelligent, he can work.

Guys all my paperwork says I cannot. So, just help me.

I have had not stable finances for 2 years. Nor a stable living situation. To get into the assisted living program I qualify for I need SSI to pay for the program because they do everything through SSI. My Rent would go through SSI. So stop f*****g around.

I'm already on Foodstamps. But I been couch surfing and taking the people I'm surfing internet for long enough.

Can we stop bullshiting around?

Sorry needed a little vent here.

http://www.disabilitysecrets.com/dnewsb ... urity.html
Just part of the process.

http://www.disabilitysecrets.com/resour ... -will-expe
Some people do get their applications expedited.

I know this. But the point I am trying to make is that he doesn't think there's anything wrong with me. Is what I said. His language was coded with

"well you're intelligent, why not vocational rehabilitation"

"you're obviously intelligent"

"you're very bright"

"you're very smart"

Smart has nothing to do with what I can do.

I'm Textbook Intelligent. I'm however, Adulting Stupid