You have done something you joined Wrong Planet and are in a way talking with people. You can seek out people that are interested in the same things you are. You can think about your strengths in order to feel better about yourself. All of this is very hard. People and yourself have judged you harshly your whole life so the damage caused will take time to undo. It will never be easy but if you do what I advised a tiny bit at a time eventually it can get noticible less hard.
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Professionally Identified and joined WP August 26, 2013
DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman