Feeling alone

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It has been some time since I have posted on this forum and now I know that I need to as I am having huge issues with acceptance by my family.
I know when I was just a kid my family did not understand me, and I did not understand me. I now know that I am Aspie.
I learnt from my family (by their actions toward me) that I was so odd and as a result we do not accept you as you are the black sheep.
All these years later I would love to hear them say ‘Bob we love you for who you are as we can see that you have many strengths.’
Sadly they do not look at my strengths, all they see is a guy who struggles with mixing with people and making friends.
Communication is one of my biggest issues and even as I write this post I am thinking ‘am I making myself clear.’
To live this way is tearing me apart inside.
Can any of you guys and girls understand what I am going through? Have you experienced the above issue?

Yes I was a black sheep too.
It's like they didn't know me.
They called me sick in the head, schizophrenic, something wrong with me, doesn't know how to act, doesn't like people, just animals.
They pushed me out into the world and didn't protect me.
I didn't communicate with them. I just withdraw and cry. I wanted them to love me but they're dead now.

You have to communicate with your parents. They won't know what's going on if you don't tell them.

I understand what you're going through.

I have a hard time communicating with my parents about anything in my life. Especially my dad; I feel very judged no matter what I say. I just don't think he understands me. Sometimes I think he plays that judgment off as if he were joking, but sometimes I'm not so sure. So I've learned just to share the minimum possible to save myself the agony.

Something I've learned in the last few years though, is that people will often surprise you if you give them a chance. Trust me, I get communication is hard. But I encourage you to try and share your emotions with your parents as best you can. Maybe they can help. Or at least, they'll get a little insight into who you are. If you feel like they're judging you, tell them that you think it's unfair, because [list the ways all those things are affected by autism here]. Tell them in the same exact words you've just typed out; "I feel like you don't see all my strengths".

I should probably take my own advice. So please let me live vicariously through you.