I've certainly been suicidal in the past, but I certainly am not now and I wouldn't describe my entire existence as suffering. I also am able to feel the world and don't view it as simply wallpaper, I don't experience it quite the same way as people without the condition but I very much do experience things and have emotions attached to it. I also don't have any innate desire for being alone that much, from time to time it's nice to have a little time to myself but I hate being alone more often than not...I know that due to always being the sort of outcast kid no one liked at school so I had lots of alone time and hated it. I also do not live in constant terror, that is a waste of time and I've wasted enough time in my life I think.
As for AS people being gods, nice idea...but I would think I might already know about that if it were the case, but I don't seem to have any godly powers so I find it to be doubtful.
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We won't go back.