Let me tell one more thing that will comfort you more.
I read a lot about Autism and AS, not only because I am one, but also because I have studied psychology and sociology and I see and notice many different things that most clinical psychologists who write about Autism and AS seem to miss.
I am in the process of writing (a book?) about all my findings.
One of the things that I've noticed is that frequently I see articles talking about an 'epidemic' and saying that more and more children are being diagnosed with AS and Autism.
Now, is that accidental? Is it possible, just theoretically, that slowly this NT world is 'turning' into Aspie? Is it possible that slowly the Aspie and NT percentages in the years to come are going to show a very different reality than the one we know today?
What if in another 50, 100 years the relation between Aspies and NTs is 2 to 1 and NTs are not the majority any more? Maybe, we are the 'children' of a new age, a new generation that has the 'tools' we need to one day conquer the stars.
Our analytical mind, our high percentage of high IQs, our obsessions, our affinity with computers, our ability to work alone, our a-sociality can even one day proven to be a pro that a con especially if we will have to live in spaceships for long periods of time.
We will be able to focus on our tasks, work without wasting time chit-chating, by saying what we mean and mean what we say will also save time if a situation needs to be handled fast and efficiently.
Is it possible that the abilities and talents that we have are excatly what the human kind needs to make the HUGE step and conquer space, conquer the universe?
Yes, it is a theory, an allegory, maybe even a dream. But you know, some 20-30 years ago NO ONE could even dream of talking here to each other using a tiny laptop and communicating through a phone line or a satelite...
If it wasn't for an Aspie (Bill Gates) who made that possible we would still be using telephones. Nothing is impossible if one dares to dream, dares to see a bit further than the mundane reality. A bit further than the diagnoses and the clinicians that calls us disabled and sell books on how to cure us!! !
I refuse to be cured I am proud and happy of who I am!
I am glad I have the abilities I have and if I have to miss some silly chit-chat and friends that engage in such, then so be it. I have far more meaningfull friendships with fellow Aspies that share my points of view and my special interests.
I am not wasting my time, I am learning and developing myself.
Star
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Autism is a reality that seems to the neurotypicals like a bad dream, while it is their reality that is the true nightmare...