Living true to yourself but still functional? How?

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I am new to the idea that AS is just another way of "being" in the world. While it is appealing in theory I am struggling with application here!
I've spent a lifetime suppressing behaviours that get raised eyebrows or concerned comments. Many of these same behaviours are actually pretty dysfunctional, if I am honest with myself. They often are things that slow me down, can make a situation unsafe or simply distract or discomfort others. It is no wonder we grow up thinking we are the ones with the problem!
In so many ways it is simpler to be the one to bend if capabilities allow BUT it is so very tiring to keep it up as life keeps getting more complicated! I wish I had more energy for things that are important to me but I'm not sure the energy expended having to endure the weird looks and having to explain myself would be any less than forcing myself to act normal!
Has anyone "transitioned" and found it worthwhile?

I know I have to adapt to the world around me.

But, to a certain extent, I behave how I want to. Some of this "behavior" is rather eccentric.

I do.

But it really depends at people around you and who or what your true self is.
If your personal body language could blend in or not. If your personal stims are 'distracting' or not. And so on...

It also depends how much you can handle and how messy the environment you're facing.
If you have physical vulnerabilities or not, that could affect interacting the environment. If you have a loose or strict expectations around you. And so on, and so on...


Once you calculate that, that's when one knows what to adjust without unnecessary over-doing that could waste your mental energy.

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You don't have to explain yourself. They figure it out.

Of course they just write me off as weird, odd, whatever, but it's true so what do I care? That's better than being a phony. I do whatever it takes to get things accomplished, work tasks and things like that, but beyond that I don't make much of an effort to pretend I'm normal.

Lots of people need to adapt. I think that what the saying "when in Rome, do as the Romans do" means. I honestly rather be seen as odd, rather someone who is seen as a jerk or bully. There's worse things than being peculiar.

I can't function being myself or censoring my thoughts and behaviors so I just isolate and cry,

It seems everything is an after thought,

I loathe autism, I would burn everything I own to be normal. If anyone with autism can transition to the exceptions of the world then they are a better person than I am.