wrinkling paper and book pages

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Does anyone bend and wrinkle the corners and sides of book pages/paper?

I suddenly started doing this when I was about 8 and have been unable to stop since. I ruined many books when I was a kid and definitely got made fun of for it. Now, I can control it if it is a library book or a document that other people will see, but sometimes not even then. Newspaper, post-it notes, notebooks, or any other kind of paper works, although certain types of paper are much more satisfying than others. Sometimes I keep a throwaway piece of paper next to me at work so as not to ruin something important that I am working on. I often do it without even realizing, like if I'm talking on the phone and happen to have a paper in my hand. I have searched online but haven't been able to find any information on this. Sound familiar to anyone?

I don't actually bend or wrinkle the paper, but when I was a child I did in fact have this habit of rubbing the edge of the pages of a book, compulsively. I would lay my hand along the top edge of the book and rub the top edge of the closed section of pages of the book while I read. I liked the velvety texture of those closed paper edges, and it became like my reading ritual.

I grew out of doing it, probably because when people started to notice, I felt embarrassed. It was kind of like a stim, looking back on it now. But I still like to have a tactile contact with a book I'm reading -- I don't just hold a book, I like to lay fingers across the page and feel the paper warm up under my fingers. I'm very tactile with books, but I stop short of actually messing up the paper or anything.

I tend to do that when I am reading, to the page I am not reading at the moment. I've never ruined a book that way though, maybe bent a couple pages here and there but that is about it. I also tend to crumple paper in my hand like if I am holding a receipt or some other small piece of paper or if its in my pocket I will crumple it in my pocket. Usually I don't notice when I am doing it for a while so doesn't really seem like a conscious thing I decide to do, but nonetheless I find myself doing it.

I know one time at school I got in trouble for supposedly skipping ahead in a book the whole class was assigned to read...when I was just fidgeting with the page and I was auto-reading because I found the story quite boring. Teacher thought I was just flipping through pages acting like I was reading, and figured that I wasn't quite sure what had been going on in the story was proof I wasn't reading.

I will bend the corner to mark the page that has information on it that I want to come back to. Ever since I was a kid I liked to smell paper be it magazines, books, etc. I also like the feel of different types of paper stock. Weird I know, but me none the less.

Yep, I also do that, and I too must have started around the age of 8 or so.

Perhaps you can find employment in a deckled paper factory.