with autistic people there's a tendency to display certain facial expressions that are meant to show interest and geniality but in fact are inappropriate to the matter, too subtle or too intense. There are also disturbing breaks in this at which points one becomes indifferent to what people think, such as an inappropriate, characterless yawn. It's simply asthetic. Weakly feigned interest and it changes the way you act even when alone. It's impossible it seems to overcome without putting on a whole false nature. Agreed? i mean thoughts? I worry that I do this and everyone's afraid of me. It's serious because my past 3 girlfriends clearly noticed this and it was excruciatingly patronizing but I just accepted that as though it couldn't change. It's also a question whether at times it's acceptable to turn off this nature and then be brusque. If so, is it due to the potentiality of the reason for it that the person notes the absence of decorum and acts superior to it? But it's probably not accpetable. I'm ranting so chill, CHILL, I know this is getting weird but I think an overall aesthetic view of socializations whereby they are kept decorous and comfortable should be applied in lieu of standards of individual behavior from experience.
11 Sep 2016, 1:31 pm
