Twilightprincess wrote:
I was a victim. I lacked the foresight as a young person with undiagnosed and unsupported autism to see the signs that a trusted person was going to abuse me.
Young people, being young, don't have enough life experience to see the signs, and the different developmental curve for AS people, diagnosed or not, does put them at extra risk. It was never your fault at all: of course you "lacked foresight"; foresight is a function of adult maturity; please don't blame yourself in any way, not even the tiniest way.
It was not your fault. Abusers are exploiters, manipulators, planners. The fault for their criminal plans and actions is 100% theirs and only theirs. Many victims do blame themselves for something they did, or just for being there. Regret is understandable, but blaming yourself is completely unwarranted. You knew what you knew, you didn't know what you didn't know. I am very sorry that this happened to you; it makes me want to believe in karma.