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I have to write this as its starting to drive me round the bend.

How would you feel if you could remove your AS ???

I feel that it being a love/hate relationship with Aspergers to be a big understatment as on the one hand i feel that it pretects me and gives me focus and understanding of things that a lot just see nothing in and on the other hand its like a 25 tonne weight tied round my ankle.....

I feel like that if it was removed then i would be like Superman was in Superman II, exposed, easy pray with nowhere to hide once his powers where taken away, just so he could feel intergrated fully into society. I wish so much i could have some NT abilities like being able to pick up the phone or talk to people or meet new people etc etc as i would be able to then get ahead in my interests. Yet, i feel, once that Asperger iron shield is gone then i will lose all the understanding that i have of my interests becuase it has been alowed to develope due to my Aspergers.

I dont want to sound sad about it but its just more and more often when there is a situation when i want to tell my AS "for gods sake give me a chance ! !! !" ie when i will hide from people or people that i know i should speak to becuase they have the same interest as me or i cant face going into perticular shops and yet i know i really must if i am to persue my passions.

But i do know one thing and that is my AS isnt going anywhere, i dont want it to, i just wish it wast quite literally "in my face" everywhere i go......

Alex(uk)

Sometimes I wish I could get rid of particular things, like sensory problems, not being able to concentrate. That's mainly because they're the ones that cause me the most frustration at the moment. Socially it doesn't bother me so much anymore, I'm working on my social anxiety and, although I would like to be able to understand people moer and stop making stupid mistakes/misinterpreting things and looking like an idiot, it doesn't affect me so much now as I'm not as interested in friendships/relationships as I used to be.
I think I know what you mean though. Although I wouldn't want to completely stop having AS, it would be useful to pick and choose which traits I had.

i'd like to remove cognitive dysfunction that's about it.

Without AS I wouldn't be able to focus on things I want, I believe I would feel as drunk.

I dunno, it would be a huge shock. I don't think I would like it much. I watch my boyfriend and he can jump from one topic to another without hesitation and without trying to figure it out. I can't imagine not wanting to figure things out and thoroughly understand it-I like that feeling sometimes, it makes me happy. I also get really happy over little bitty things-jumping up and down, clapping, watering eyes and such. When a lot of people say that they are happy, you can't really tell and they don't seem to enjoy it much-it's just part of another day. It's hard to imagine not getting super happy over silly things and having "a-ha!" moments all the time. I find it fun.

I don't know if it's AS or just me, but I know my bf isn't like that, and my cousins aren't like that either, lol... they seem... bored, with EVERYTHING, lol

I agree with many of the above comments.

NO! I would not change my Aspieness for nothing in the world!

Because of AS I know all the stuff I know, I have the high IQ I have (above 135), I understand things so much more, see details, meanings and associations that others miss, I love my photographic memory, I like my abilities and I ACCEPT my less abilities.

I have friends mostly people who have profound Aspie traits that I can talk to and not feel confused by their body language and facial epressions, I have friends that are on line and share my special inetersts, I have even NT friends who do not even know I am an Aspie but think of me as just a bit eccentric. So what?

You know, I really prefer the way I am and if I could be reborn I would want to come back AGAIN as an Aspie.

Star

If I could remove my social difficulties without disturbing anything else, I would do it in a flash.

It's hard to imagine what it would be like if it were entirely removed though. I'm not completely sure what parts of me are because of ASD and what is just me.

If there were an irreversible pill I could take to suddenly make me NT, I would not take it, for fear it would make me dumb and boring.

I agree with nobodyzdream and many of the others here, I enjoy most of the AS qualities I have, and most of the time consider it a gift. Sure, there's a downside, but on balance I'd prefer to be the way I am.

I have become accustomed to who and what I am (at 53 yrs). If any of my AS went away it would be Invasion of the Body Snatchers time! I will keep all of my AS.

I would not change anything about myself including the aspie traits I show. Changing anything about me would be turning me into another person, even if only a slightly different person. I would like to work towards getting better at doing certain things, but I would still be me. I would still think the same way, experience emotions the same way, and hold the same views and ideas that I always have.

I would like to remove the associated difficulties such as anxiety and my seizure disorder, so I wouldn't have to take medication.