Okay long story short, I asked a girl out that I maybe shouldn't have (I tutor her in a college class... She's on the spectrum... we have a ton in common... Last session we wonder up talking for like 90 minutes about everything... that practically is a date or at least hanging out... Her class is almost done... Figured whatever). She freaked out because she's a client at another company I worked at (didn't even know that part but... Whatever). It's probably no big deal but it made me realize my overall mental health right now sucks.
I am a very social despite my past (didn't really talk socially for several years after high school). Right now I am so drained after work every day (sorta work 5 jobs for 3 companies altogether and drive around a ton) and trying to find people to be social with is near impossible. I think that's why I wanted to ask her out. Right now I never hang out with anyone, never go out with anyone, never do anything with anyone, and even things like gaming or having fun are hard because of how drained I am at the end of every single day. I feel like i am in an endless cycle and not sure how to improve it other than giving up on being independent.
16 Nov 2016, 1:30 am
