I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism around 3 years ago when I was 14. My diagnosis had come about after I had been quite severely depressed. Prior to that nobody would have ever thought I had autism.
At that point in my life thinking back on it I was a completely different person, I was constantly sad and just didn't care about anything, I was empty.
Now I feel like I'm caring to much. Now I'm not depressed and empty I've become super self-conscious to the point where I'm tripping over my own feet because I think I'm walking weirdly (which I'm not) and other stuff similar to that. Ever since the diagnosis I've been so self-conscious about people believing I have autism that I've developed traits I didn't have before the diagnosis.
Even though I'm now super anxious and care deeply about my life, I procrastinate and procrastinate, letting things pass me by. I have no motivation to do anything that would benefit me unless it takes no effort. As I'm in college, not doing any work isn't working out to well. I'm scared I'll spend my whole life doing this and end up a nobody, even though I could do anything I set my mind to.
Well those are all my problems, if anyone knows of any solutions, that'd be nice. Mostly just came here to vent.
06 Jan 2017, 9:35 pm
