Does this sound like Autism or Aspergers?

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Hi my name is Sebastian and I am a sophomore in high school. I am really having a breakdown and it's been getting worse by the minute. I want to know if I am in fact on the spectrum. So in elementary through middle school I was a loner and weird. I had no friends. I became really harsh and annoying to the people around me and that made them hate me even more. I got into many fights until my principal sent me to get tested. They said I wasn't autistic but it wasn't a thorough test just like an analysis or something. I cant remember well. Flash forward to 10 year old me. I was having these really weird urges of sadistic things. I admitted myself in fear that I might hurt others. The doctors said that I was overthinking as a result of my diagnosis OCD and depression. Once I thought about it I kept digging my own grave. So now 7th grade came along and I had calmed down and taken it easy. I became a loner though because I tried to stay out of peoples way and to mask my personality. I am still like this but now looking back at al that I think I am autistic or something. In high school now I don't have friends and people are snakes. I know high school is like this but it makes it worse because I have OCD. I've once again dug myself a hole I am too deep in and I need someone to tell me if I am on the spectrum or not and some words of encouragement. Now for my traits, I can most definitely speak to others without a problem but I am also anxious. I am a fat guy and that I believe lowers my self-esteem and contributes to my awkwardness. I move around funny and my teachers think I am weird. Also because all of this, my grades are dropping which also doesn't help. I know awkwardness is a broad term so i'lll explain. My handshakes, hugs, movements, are weird and off. My face expressions rarely change as I am always anxious and my leg does that thing because of it. I think anxiety goes along with this. Also people treat me like I am a little kid. It really sucks but I am really trying. I am so drained, tired, sad, exhausted, worried because of this situation. The only thing keeping me going is the hope that this is just me being a teen and that i'll have friends by college. I talked to my psychiatrist about the possibility of being an aspie or something and she said that all this could be a side effect of depression. I also just took two of the popular quizzes online and it says I am very likely neurotypical. The longer one was the one that showed it. My score for the quiz was...

Neurodiverse: 61/200
Neurotypical: 173/200
Neurodiverse traits were relationships, friendships, and communication.

I honestly thought it was going to be the opposite

The listed traits may be part of an overarching diagnosis, but it's not something that can be determined without a more comprehensive evaluation.

It sounds like a very worthwhile endeavor to investigate further, but IMO starting from an ASD assumption is narrowing the focus too much, too soon. Either way, continue advocating for yourself and seeking the answers.

Thanks Exuvian for the reply. I will def do anything I can to learn more about ASD and myself. Much appreciated!

I don't sense there's too much autism in you.

You seem like a smart kid. Do you have anything you are REALLY interested in?

Do you have a notion of what you want to major in when you go to college?

Common Traits

You need to have most but not of all the traits to be autistic.
You can be autistic and have other conditions. This is common, in fact OCD and Depression commonly occur with autism.
Autism shares many traits with other conditions.
So based on one post we can not diagnose or undiagnose you.

Since whatever it is, is impairing your life and your evaluations were a while back and apparently slipshod I would advise getting a new THOROUGH assessment.