Am I on the spectrum

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I sometimes see posts about lot of people on here pretending to have Aspergers or they think they have it and it makes me cringe because it makes me feel uncomfortable because I'm not sure if they think I'm one of them. Sure I may have been diagnosed but it was just to help me get through school and give me the education I needed. My parents took the diagnoses to have control over my school to stop them from putting me in a class with violent kids. It was the closest my doctor could get for me for a diagnoses. I had ear infections when I was a baby so I lost my hearing and it made me speech delayed and I was placed in a class with ret*d kids so it held me back and everyone had different rules so it was hard to know right from wrong and that's probably why I have troubles figuring stuff out my mom says.
It is possible I am not on the spectrum at all because my mind is all messed up from what I went through as a kid. The hearing loss, being put in a speciel ed class for two years with ret*d kids, being bullied.

As being deaf, I was good at puzzles and my mother says deaf people are good at puzzles too and they also take things apart and I did that when I was a little girl and they also smell and sniff things and I do that. I brought that trait with me as I got older and I like touching things, so do deaf people. I was also echolailic in my early childhood and I acted autistic because of my hearing loss. Deaf children also act autistic.

I was put in special ed class full time with other ret*d kids when I was 6 and 7 because of my speech delay. I was talking when I was 6 but I was still put in that class and everyone had different rules and it was okay for someone to do something no one else was allowed to do. One boy was allowed to run back in the class with his pants and underwear down, one girl was allowed to scream everytime someone touched her back by rubbing it, one boy was allowed to have his own basketball on the playground and not have to share it and he was also allowed to yell out numbers that had the 9's in them everytime we did counting, etc. etc. My mom said that's probably why I have troubles figuring out what the rules are and get confused when I see people breaking them.

I was also bullied so I had learned to turn off my feelings and not show my feelings at all and now I hardly have any as if.

I may have symptoms of Aspergers. The obsessions, problems judging distance, patterns and the routines, disliking changes, troubles with seeing unwritten rules, problems seeing where the lines are drawn, troubles seeing the grey areas, problems with volume of speech (I talk loud) unaware of how others feel until they tell me, problems knowing people's personal space, sensory issues with touch, and feel etc.

Maybe I am just an NT with aspie traits. I have made over 1300 posts so some of you know about me and know we well from them so this poll would be for you to answer. Do I sound Nt or aspie or someone who acts like an aspie because my mind is all f****d up from what happened in my childhood thanks to hearing loss and it made my brain wire differently? That would explain why I was under the catagory "Other health impaired" instead of "autism" because aspergers isnt a true diagnoses, its there because I have the behavior and no one will never know if I am on the spectrum or not or know if I still would have turned out to be this way. I was told by my shirnk when i was 17 and by my school counsler everything was just a coincidence. They could be right because my family has aspie traits and I just collected lot of it and I sure have some aspie skills like the year thing I can do in my head. Knowing what year someone is born in after knowing how old they are and I found out people have to actually do the math in their head and I just do it, I don't add anything or subtract. I can see the years in my head and I look at it and find the answer and I have memorized combinations to locks at work I need to know and people at work have to look them up or have to have it written down. I know a guy there has to have it written down but not me. I store it in my head. I am good with dates so I turn numbers into dates so thats how I add things up and remember combinations.

Last edited by likedcalico on 18 May 2007, 10:26 am, edited 1 time in total.

Even though deafness may have given you Aspie traits, I believe you are self-aware enough to know what Asperger's is.
See, I went through the same sort of stuff except it was with vision, not hearing.
After years of my odd behaviour being put down to vision problems, I got diagnosed with HFA.

For what it's worth, I think you're as Aspie as they come.

dx dx dx

well i don't know you and obviously, who am i to say anyway ?
But why does it matter, I mean if a doctor gives you a diagnosis, it is not going to change you is it.
I would stop cringing when you read such posts; what matters is what you think of yourself, not what someone who knows nothing about you thinks.

That made me laugh in a nice way because it is a very AS thing to say. What makes you think people were thinking of you? Only because you tend to think people know what your thinking.

You said you are dx. If you don't feel comfortable with it I would get another. Otherwise i wouldn't worry.

Interestingly I'm not deaf but my parents had my hearing tested because I would not respond.

Comorbidity does not rule out AS. If you were, heh heh, normal, you would have gotten over those early experiences by now. On the spectrum includes all degrees of behaviour and thought patterns. You seem AS to me. Any one symptom will not rule out or rule in AS. It's the cluster and results that count. Knowing about AS for me is for knowing how to treat other people better. When I get upset about schedule changes, I take the AS into account and suppress the anger the other people do not deserve. It is not their fault they are NT and don't realize how hard some things are for me. Other people are not targeting me to make my life miserable (well, most arent') They are living their lives the best way they know and have no idea how they poke me in sensitive places.