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It sucks major ass to be an autistic guy. It sucks even more because I am so freaking dumb. I am not good at anything and I will never amount to anything.

I can't do anything with my life. I am f*****g 21 years old and never had a friend or a gf. I am jobless and my father only gives me 50$ a month as pocket money.

Looking at the bright side of things should help but the problem is that there is no bright side. I can't find anything good about me. Every time I see rich and successful people I get very angry and wish I could switch places with them .

I also tried to compare myself with people who have it worse but it doesn't help. I know how there are people who have it worse than me. There are people who are missing their limbs, there are people who are homeless but I don't feel better when I think that I have it better than them. I still have so many problems and just because I have less problems than some super-miserable people out there, it doesn't meant that my life is fine. I need to get a life.

and I envy girls all the time, specially the hot ones. If I was a hot girl then I could play with my tits and feel better about the situation. and if I faced any rude guy who was getting on my nerves I could just yell- "don't you know how to treat a lady" or "If it weren't for women you wouldn't be even born, so show some respect".. but I don't have that option because I was born with a penis. Some things are really easy for women now a days..

It was better if I was suicidal now like I was 6 months earlier. Then I could kill myself and be done with it. Society doesn't need a sad excuse of a human being like me .

one thing I personally have found is that people who actually want to commit suicide, will. and what I also see, is that you're looking for help, because being dead realistically sucks more than smelling flowers or looking at the sky outside when you DO get happy breaks from the hell we all have (i promise you part of this is also what neurotypical adults go through too)

so...

I'm 26. I'm in my first serious relationship. Itll come.
Secondly, Women don't have it that easy. "No" often leads to rape and "how to treat a lady" isnt too cut and dry.
Thirdly, rich people get rich ....on usually a single idea at first, have rich parents or something to fund their idea, or own a bunch of profitable crap they can take advantage of.. or investors. Not to be crude, but you're a dude. You could play with your dick to feel better, as you said "If I was a hot girl then I could play with my tits and feel better about the situation." I doubt it. Girls who have aspergers don't have that immediate "out"

Life is wonderful. Are there any hobbies you enjoy? Any sort of places you like to go? do you read? Would you be interested in volunteering with animals? Do you have support services to help you like a counsellor?

Do you assume that foreskin makes things feel better? I don't have one, I was circumcized as a child. My dingus feels fine...... You had it done when you were SIX? What the heck is the story behind this? is it possibly psychosomatic based on your understanding? or is it an actual lack of feeling? pardon if it's too personal or crude. it seems ALSO like dysmorphia, not being able to identify with something which is yours, as you dont recognize it as part of you?