FlySwine wrote:
JakeASD wrote:
It is quite apparent that I loathe interacting with other people. In many respects my life would be a great deal easier if I were non-verbal. I also lack verbal skills, appear rather gormless on many occasions and am extremely awkward in social situations. I dread to think how low my IQ is.
are you mild? if so, what do you mean by awkward?
I never know what to say and usually seem disinterested and withdrawn around others. I attended a grammar school, but I do not consider my autism to be mild. I am happier in my own head, and quite frankly it pisses me off when I am expected to engage with others. My working memory is dreadful, I seldom retain anything and my imagination is nonexistent, thus I believe I have severe learning difficulties.
Right now I am infuriated because the NHS have employed me in an administration role. My self-esteem has plummeted even further because it's highlighted just how slow I am.
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