Owl123 wrote:
I was Diagnosed last year with Major depressive disorder with psychotic features Axis II Borderline personality, passive agressive features
I had selective mutism at 9. The following years I just had a gradual improvement in terms of communication and interaction.
At 21, my present age, I still have minimal interaction with peers as well as other people. I speak in a soft volumed monotone which irritates a lot of people. I love music. When I was 9, I had an obsession with violin.
At 19 I got obsessed with Spirit Science and Quantum Physics and Owl City.
I struggle with short conversations but I love to have deep conversations.
I have lack of commonsense as what most tell me, I am clumsy, I can't easily read between the lines what someone is talking about so I appear like a deaf or a fool, I am an empath. I have social anxiety. I am a crybaby.
I can mostly relate with Owl City's songs and the way it is delivered. I am so poor in terms of verbal instructions that one time I didn't answer 1/4 of the test items in a college entrance exam because I thought the proctor said 2hrs per two subjects, never thought she meant, 2hrs for the whole. But fortunately I passed. I also often score almost perfect in english proficiency, and vocabularies. Though I rarely read novels or books requiring steadfast focus. But when I was a kid, I read random health and science related books and mags. When I was 7 however, I draw and make a sentence out of a word from a dictionary. I have deep passion for words.
I am poor at organizing. However, when I was about 3 I used to arrange my toys and our stuffs the way I wanted them to be. I also arrange and clean our whole bedroom and living room without anyone's command. My parents aren't even OC. And we have our nanny to do the cleaning.
Sigh. There's so much more I can tell, but I'm tired of typing already. Please, could anyone help me.
I can relate to a lot of this. I was also diagnosed with major depression, then in 2015 with Borderline Personality Disorder. And, of course, Asperger's in 2010. I was pretty shy and quiet during my elementary school years, too, and also struggled with communication and interaction with my peers. I absolutely HATE small talk. I can't stand it! Either have a good, deep conversation with me or leave me alone. I can also relate to the lack or common sense, clumsiness and social anxiety. I'm not that good at organizing either. When you mentioned Owl City, it reminded me of this guy I got involved with when I lived in California back in 2008 and 2009. I don't remember the name of the song, but it was one of their #1 hits and this guy and I used to call it "our song". But now whenever I hear that song, I cringe because it reminds me of him and how he treated me. It was pretty bad. He introduced me to crack cocaine, stole money from me, lied to me, manipulated me, used me and took advantage of me in a big way. He also verbally and emotionally abused me. So there you go. He even played that same song on my voice mail at one point after I moved to Chicago. He just wouldn't give up until I had to change my phone number. Ok, enough about that a@#hole. I'm really into playing word games and, speaking of reading novels, I read Michael Crichton's "Jurassic Park" 6 times. I'm still a huge fan of Jurassic Park. It's my favorite movie. Well, I sure do see signs from you of being an Aspie. So I would say yes, you're an Aspie. Join the club! I hope this helped.
08 Feb 2017, 12:45 am
