As a yet-to-be-diagnosed adult with ASD traits, I've been wondering for a long while now about why haven't I faced the pressure and difficulties that some of you in here have had to endure throughout your life. I never quite had disruptive behaviour, neither at home nor at school, but there are some things that I've always done that seem pretty autistic and I've never been called out because of them.
For one, I've always had trouble with eye contact. Particularly when I have to use a lot of cognitive effort (when explaining something, at a meeting at work, etc.) I have the tendency to look sideways and not directly into the eyes. When I'm staring at a face, I tend to focus on the mouth. However, I've never in my life experienced the "look me in the eye!" thing.
When excited, I tend to rub my feet, clap, and repeat sentences if I find them really amusing or funny. I have never encountered any issues because of this.
I sometimes stim in public (even though I only became aware of it being stimming recently); i.e. I walk back and forth inside a room, I repeatedly pinch my lower lip, I repeatedly bounce my leg up and down, I rock sideways while standing. I have also never received any comments on this (other than people touching my leg to quiet the bouncing down because I was making them nervous, or my mother calling me off on repeatedly playing with a pen for the same reason). I also know plenty of people that do similar things, i.e. crack their knuckles, bit their nails (this is extremely common in Spain, for instance, and it kind of drives me nuts) are don't seem autistic in the slightest otherwise.
I have lived in Spain, Germany, and now Denmark. The culprit of my negative experiences due to my traits was perhaps Germany, where I was kind of trained by my ex into good behaviour and was made to feel I was very rude, and that I treated those who loved me badly (i.e. I'd experience shutdowns often). In Denmark, however, people seem super laid back and even if I exhibit these behaviours in public, they don't really seem to care.
So, I wonder, is this "socially accepted behaviours" particularly strong in i.e. USA, as compared to some places in Europe? How culturally-dependent do you think the identification of some traits as "abnormal" in people with suspected ASD is?
p.s.: I have plenty of other issues, i.e. sensory issues (very low tolerance to noise, light, and touch), anxiety, premature and elaborate speech when I was a kid, social issues, many executive function issues, etc. However, none of these seem to have been disruptive enough for those around me to suspect of anything other than me being weird.
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Really enjoyed being a yellow-throated woodpecker while it lasted.
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 139 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 67 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)