I think I'm about to have some kind of meltdown. I had a fight with my dad earlier (or he did with me, I don't understand what I did wrong), which led to anxiety, and built from there. I can feel my heart and my pulse all the way through my body; it's making my skin crawl and emotionally I can't settle. It's been hours.
I can feel my emotions building up in my head. They're becoming less and less distinct; harder to see, never mind understand or reconcile with. Picture a cumulonimbus, it's that. Imminent storm. I feel horrible.
So far I have tried to distract myself with various activities, and to drown it out with music. If it was dark, I could go outside, but as it is there's too much stimulation out there. Light, traffic, neighbours, ugh.
What do you do if you feel a meltdown coming on?
And if there's nothing you can do to stop it, do you ever try and speed it up?
I'd love to get this out of the way so I can get back to studying.