So sorry to keep bugging you all but I feel really scared

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Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 3:01 pm

Hi. As you've probably seen by now,I've been posting on here for about a week. My psychiatrist said I have some consistent symptoms with ASD,and ever since I've been googling the hell out of everything to do with ASD. My assessment is in 9 days.

I'm scared because it's sounding more and more like a fit. Now I'm reading there's a correlation between hygiene issues and ASD (sensory issues). I once went three month without showering (yes,I know. Awful). The feel of hot water and wrinkly skin bugged me out a little.

All that's missing is social cues and sarcasm,which I understand well.



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15 Apr 2017, 3:21 pm

Why scared?Accept and embrace that your different.

And don't feed your fears.

Here's a quiz,if you haven't already done it?

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php


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Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 3:30 pm

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
Why scared?Accept and embrace that your different.

And don't feed your fears.

Here's a quiz,if you haven't already done it?

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php


I've done it. Multiple scores.

Ranging from 25 to 33.



Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 3:36 pm

'Do you prefer to be at a library than a party'? Well,I'd *rather* be at a party than at a library,yes. I really want to have fun and be normal and have a great time with other people. But I just don't fit in. Just like I'd *rather* be married with children.

So I answered yes to that.



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15 Apr 2017, 3:42 pm

Try, if you can, to replace the anxiety and stress that you must be feeling after the discovery of your possible autism, with the excitement and curiosity of finally learning about this thing that has likely been affecting you for your entire life. After all, if you have lived with it (relatively) fine for all these years, than why could you not for many more?



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15 Apr 2017, 3:51 pm

Ignotum wrote:
Try, if you can, to replace the anxiety and stress that you must be feeling after the discovery of your possible autism, with the excitement and curiosity of finally learning about this thing that has likely been affecting you for your entire life. After all, if you have lived with it (relatively) fine for all these years, than why could you not for many more?


+ 1


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Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 3:51 pm

Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 96 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 119 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

What does this mean?



Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 4:00 pm

Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 101 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 113 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

Mmm. Anyone?



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15 Apr 2017, 4:01 pm

Tom1992 wrote:
'Do you prefer to be at a library than a party'? Well,I'd *rather* be at a party than at a library,yes. I really want to have fun and be normal and have a great time with other people. But I just don't fit in. Just like I'd *rather* be married with children.

So I answered yes to that.


I understand but your going against the grain,at your own detriment.

Face the facts,your unattainable 'normal?',is unachievable when you don't fit in.

Your chasing a pipe dream and trying to be like others.

Accept your differences and accept yourself,other wise you remain in the loop of negativity.


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Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 75 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)

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15 Apr 2017, 4:07 pm

Tom1992 wrote:
Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 101 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 113 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

Mmm. Anyone?


You could be borderline,though online tests are not an official diagnosis.
Wait and see what your psychiatrist has to say and don't stress in the mean time.


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Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 75 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)

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15 Apr 2017, 4:10 pm

Maybe look at it this way... an autism diagnosis can give you answers and paths forward for something(s) that likely made your life very difficult in ways that you couldn't explain or cope with very well. You don't have to tell ANYONE about it if you don't want-- that is your decision alone. I know it's scary because it's like this whole world opens up that you didn't realize existed or weren't familiar with, but you don't have to be scared about not having control or feel obligated to disclose.



Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 4:13 pm

ElabR8Aspie wrote:
Tom1992 wrote:
Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 101 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 113 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

Mmm. Anyone?


You could be borderline,though online tests are not an official diagnosis.
Wait and see what your psychiatrist has to say and don't stress in the mean time.


Verbal comprehension- terrible
Basic problem solving - terrible
Social life - non existent
Intense interests - yes
Stimming - yes (it's got worse in my 20s. Pacing and tensing when excited)
Chronic daydreaming/low motivation/fatigue
Bullied for being 'odd' and 'stupid'


The only thing that's missing is that I recognise social cues really well and don't take things literally. And my empathy is fine (I have too much)



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15 Apr 2017, 4:15 pm

lostsaurus wrote:
Maybe look at it this way... an autism diagnosis can give you answers and paths forward for something(s) that likely made your life very difficult in ways that you couldn't explain or cope with very well. You don't have to tell ANYONE about it if you don't want-- that is your decision alone. I know it's scary because it's like this whole world opens up that you didn't realize existed or weren't familiar with, but you don't have to be scared about not having control or feel obligated to disclose.


+ 1


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You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)

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15 Apr 2017, 5:03 pm

Tom1992 wrote:
Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 96 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 119 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

What does this mean?


It means according to that test, you're only partially autistic, if you have autism at all. There are other things that are like autism or things a person can have in addition to autism that causes them difficulties. The idea is to try finding out what's wrong so you can find ways to work around it no matter what it is.



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15 Apr 2017, 5:18 pm

The diagnosis of Autism Spectrum disorder, if it happens, will give you an answer and explanation you do not want. But it will give you the answer and eventually as you research more, explanations as to why you do what you do. That is better or less bad than living life under false pretenses. This will help you to mitigate what you do not like, and hopefully, use the "symptoms" to accomplish things you do want.


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Tom1992
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15 Apr 2017, 5:22 pm

What's partially autistic? Borderline?