Could it be Asperger?

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Hi everyone, i'm new here and i would like to ask you if you think i could be Asperger, i'm gonna start from my childhood, i remember i had just one friend but i don't remember how i became her friend, when school started we never have seen each other again, the first days of school everyone where making friends but i never did because i didn't know what to say, sometimes the other kids would come to me and ask me why i didn't talked that much and i always answered that i didn't know what to say, i also wasn't interested that much in what they were talking about and i didn't understand why they were always talking cause there wasn't a reason to do it and even though i didn't had any friend i didn't felt lonely, i thought i was the "normal" one, when i was in fifth grade i started to realize i was alone and that i needed friends and so that i had to be like the others, but since i didn't know how to do something about it, when sixth grade started i was always trying to seem happy and smiling as much as I could, cause I thought since I didn't know what to say that was the only way I could make friends, but then I didn't make any friend anyway, everyone started bullying me and i didn't know how to react to what they said about me even though i knew they were teasing me cause it was clear, then high school started and I felt anxious cause now I knew people weren't all good and I knew it was hard for me to became part of a group and that I could have be alone again but at that point I didn't even care that much, i tried making friends anyway as I could but everyone always makes friend faster than me and everything I try seems useless, so then i'm here cause there must be a reason why i'm like this and maybe it's not just my personality, other than the fact that I always struggle finding what to talk about and I need a little more time to understand what everyone is talking about so most of the time I can't say anything even if I know what to say, since high school I still feel anxious now around people cause it's too much stress for me, but it's not always like "real anxiety" it's like tension and vigilance and it's because I don't know what to do around people, not because i'm scared of their judgement or something, so I don't know if it may be social anxiety, I think I also used to stim more when I was little, now I often rub my hand with my finger, but I don't know if it's stimming and i'm also sensitive to some sounds and lights, I thought of saying all that stuff to my parents but it's really hard for me and they always thought I am just shy, they don't understand, I told them about asperger but they won't listen to me, what do you think? And how could I try to tell them again about it? Sorry if it's long and thanks for reading.

Yes, it certainly could be. I don't know your parents, but maybe you could ask them to listen more to help you stop being shy. Getting ignored is not very encouraging. One or both may think there's a stigma to any mental differentiation, and/or be fighting against a diagnosis themselves. Maybe they just don't have the time or talent you need, and a mentor would help more. Good luck.
You'll get more readers if you break your writing into paragraphs. If nothing else, they help the eyes find the right lines, but they also provide a pause for the reader to check their comprehension of a section.

Yes, normal people know how to connect with one another. It comes naturally to them like an instinct.

People have always told me I'm shy and I always believed I was shy but I don't think have social anxiety, I just don't know how to get along with people or what to say, and it all seems kind of strange to me.
I don't have an instinct for eye contact either. When I try it is like people shining bright flashlights in my eyes.
And not making eye contact will make you appear shy also.

Maybe you could show your parents what you wrote in your post.

Thank you both for answering

Hi Wonder_A,
I am not sure if I am on the autism spectrum either, I was wondering the same thing as you so I can't offer any advice about that - but I had the same experience at high school with bullying and I really feel for you. I remember too not understanding why they talked so much (I still don't understand that, lol), not knowing how to interact with or react to people (I have learnt ways to deal with that now I think to some extent). You said that you "started i was always trying to seem happy and smiling as much as I could" I sort of did the same thing too. I remember for a while that laughing and smiling were my go-to reaction to other students, but I also remember eventually being teased about that too... it didn't work. Are you creative, do you like drawing - or musical, playing an instrument ? My creativity was my life-line in high-school, and I have done some amazing things in my career with my creativity since high-school. There is a life after high-school, never forget that