I feel this way too. I want to be able to be a USA-to-New Zealand kiwi, go to the Olympics for gymnastics, own my own book store, publish many novels, do figure skating, martial arts, and dance, all by myself, alone. That is the life I want.
I can't do it on my own. My family is there but they won't be in NZ. God gave me a vision of NZ 6 years ago. I'm still not there. I want to go with AT LEAST a travel partner/roommate, though going with a boyfriend is ideal. I mean, my soulmate. What if he is in Heaven and I'll be on earth for centuries before meeting him?
But I refuse to hold grudges or stuff like that. Which I would do if I stayed in America and didn't pursue my dreams. I would be angry. But sometimes I think I can't do it alone. We weren't meant to. We were meant to do this life thing with a partner.
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Change: sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful, but most of the times its both.
"Someday you might see who I really am, and it will change the way you feel about me." "Nothing could ever do that."
Made different to make a difference
whether as victor or vanquished, isn't it better than sullen resignation?